[coolibrarian]

Is there a term or phrase to describe depressed mood (though still mostly functioning, like, getting out of bed), concurrent with anxiety (though I've only had 2 near-panic attacks at work), concurrent with lack of motivation to do a job I normally love to do, due to anxiety over certain projects, as well as depression from knowing the anxiety will re-appear, and the depression will last a long time--despite meds--due to the time of year, certain anniversaries, the T being out on sick leave, and--did I mention--sleep difficulties (getting better since my Pdoc added Ativan at bedtime, along with my other meds), anxiety, and depression?

I don't think I'm bipolar.

I JUST saw my Pdoc last week, but I think I need to call him again, although I don't know what he could do. I want to get into bed and pull the covers over my head, but with a little hole for breathing and my phone charger.

[ChickenNoodleSoup]

I think calling your pdoc is a good idea. When my T was gone for a couple of weeks, I started seeing my regular doctor for a bit. She didn't know anything specific about mental health, but it still helped me, just being able to talk to somebody for a while, feeling like somebody was still looking out for me. It wasn't the same as therapy, but still helpful.

As for a specific term, I'm not sure there is one. But if you are not diagnosed with bipolar, I think a much more reasonable explanation is that you are just going through a lot. Your T is gone, some things are coming up due to the time of year... it's perfectly reasonable to be both depressed and anxious due to these circumstances, and having the support of therapy fall away for a while, it makes sense that you struggle with these things even more. That's why I'd also think contacting somebody who already knows a bit about your mental health might be good. Maybe your pdoc can set up something a bit more regular until your T hopefully is back.

[SlumberKitty]

(((Coolibrarian))) I'm not sure there is a phrase or term for it. I think you are having a hard time right now, understandably. I think your T being gone is very difficult in and of itself. It might be a good idea to call your PDOC because he might have some strategies that can help you. Keep talking here if it helps. We are listening. (((hugs))) Kit.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by coolibrarian

Is there a term or phrase to describe depressed mood (though still mostly functioning, like, getting out of bed), concurrent with anxiety (though I've only had 2 near-panic attacks at work), concurrent with lack of motivation to do a job I normally love to do, due to anxiety over certain projects, as well as depression from knowing the anxiety will re-appear, and the depression will last a long time--despite meds--due to the time of year, certain anniversaries, the T being out on sick leave, and--did I mention--sleep difficulties (getting better since my Pdoc added Ativan at bedtime, along with my other meds), anxiety, and depression?

I don't think I'm bipolar.

I JUST saw my Pdoc last week, but I think I need to call him again, although I don't know what he could do. I want to get into bed and pull the covers over my head, but with a little hole for breathing and my phone charger.

theres actually many different names for this now. its all individualized. your treatment providers can tell you what they have diagnosed this in you as being.

[velcro003]

depression and anxiety are two sides of the same coin, unfortunately, and it looks different for every person who struggles with it.

[seeker33]

I too think this doesn't have to be given a "diagnosis". Seems more like an exaggerated but natural reaction to your difficult and challenging situation. Have you ever looked into mindfulness? There are guided meditations on yt by Kabat-Zinn which you might find helpful until your T returns. Call your doctor if you're in crisis.
I wish you feel better soon!