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Magnate
Member Since Feb 2017
Location: North America
Posts: 2,361
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#281
You done ****ed up, voldy. Again.
And don't you *dare* tell me that this is all my fault, that this is me creating or enacting a cycle of victimization--you're the one who keeps bringing this crap up. I feel so crappy right now and it's your effing fault. I am so sick of your guts. |
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Magnet
Member Since Jun 2017
Location: in the garden
Posts: 2,325
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#282
This keeps popping into my mind today:
I really didn't like it when you used the word "fragile." Even though I agree, I know it's true. I was in a fragile space for a long time. Even though I get that it was in reference to a specific issue we were discussing, and about protecting the strong space I'm in now. Even though I know you are careful with your words, and you've never used that word before to describe me, and it was contextually accurate. Those are my thinking reactions. My emotional reaction was pretty visceral, strong: I am not fragile. Which is not rational, when I think about it. I didn't have anywhere else to BE fragile. I'd come shatter on the couch in your office, and we'd spend those sessions gluing me back together. Of course I was fragile. I just don't want to hear about it. __________________ Since you cannot do good to all, you are to pay special attention to those who, by accidents of time, or place, or circumstance, are brought into closer connection with you. (St. Augustine) |
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since May 2017
Location: USA
Posts: 1,734
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#283
It is incredibly hard for me to NOT feel replaced/forgotten right now. If you don't respond tonight, that is going to say a lot.
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Comfy Sedation
Member Since Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,303
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#284
I'm not showering as frequently as I should it's been 6 days again. I have terrible memories and flashbacks of the bath tub
and being at my mom's makes it worse cuz this is where it all happened my mom said I smell __________________ |
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 1,009
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#285
I feel anxious for our appointment in a way I haven't in a while. My stomach is in knots. Please be good at getting things out of me today. Please tell me it's okay. Please be more open than usually. Please share some emotional intimacy.
Please. 3 minutes P.S. Also please don't be late again |
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since May 2017
Location: USA
Posts: 1,734
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#286
I'm not going to lie...
I was hoping for more than a seemingly quick-fire sentence after all this time. I feel like a d*** saying that, but it's the truth. Maybe I am a d***. Probably I am. You've got a ton of other clients...and family...and a life...and I am demanding and needy and want you to myself all the time. I should be grateful you responded at all. Instead, I'm hurt. And angry. Mostly, from this I get that I should just leave you alone. Which leaves me alone - the little parts of me - the in-pain parts of me - the parts that only get/got to come out with you...or S. But that's my problem to deal with. |
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Roses are falling.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Seattle.
Posts: 9,804
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#287
I was too busy to miss you today.
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jan 2014
Location: n/a
Posts: 4,819
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#288
Why??? Why does everybody leave me. Based on you family history it seemed you would live a long happy life. Unfortunately you met me. Everybody around me dies young. I wish I didn't care so much about you. You could still be alive today if it weren't for me.
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#289
I'm not sorry!
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Grand Member
Member Since Aug 2017
Location: United States
Posts: 950
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#290
It's not your fault. I know you know that rationally. But I'm going to tell you again: it's not your fault.
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Poohbah
Member Since Jul 2017
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 1,019
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#291
Apart from having a bad cold, I actually feel okay and grounded. I know I have the week off, so I am able to not stress as much as usual. I remember last session you talking me through and labeling my emotions and then pointing toward the thought I had about the emotion. I remember that it felt confusing to me. But I found it to be really interesting and it makes sense.
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Roses are falling.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Seattle.
Posts: 9,804
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#292
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#293
Quote:
It's ok to smell. It's better to smell than to put yourself in an unsafe space. |
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Aug 2017
Location: A house
Posts: 4,414
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#294
Had my first post therapy dream about you. I miss you and wish I could hug you and hear you laugh again
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#295
One of these days I will tell you what I've been holding in. You won't like it one bit. You'll get all defensive like you usually do when someone talks back to you. Hopefully, you'll be behind bars because that is the only way I'll be safe from you.
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Roses are falling.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Seattle.
Posts: 9,804
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#296
I'm on your website right now because I couldn't find that photo I'd previously saved. I'm surprised you've raised your hourly fee to £60 for a normal day session and £75 for an evening session.Thanks for keeping me on my old fee.
I'm absolutely drained from yesterday and I've spent all day in bed watching GOT and not studying. I'm leaving tomorrow and have to be ready at 4pm. I actually need to finish packing and clean. __________________ |
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 1,009
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#297
Oh.
Thank you for telling me that. How did you know exactly what I needed without me even getting to that subject and telling you? I'm really going to try not to let this keep me from telling you things in the future. |
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Member
Member Since Nov 2017
Location: UK
Posts: 379
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#298
When does a thought become a plan?!
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Member
Member Since Nov 2017
Location: UK
Posts: 379
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#299
And what's your definition of safe?!
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#300
Hiya L, an image of that endearing little grin of yours just popped into my head for some reason and it made my heart smile.
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