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Magnate
Member Since Mar 2017
Location: Underground
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#21
T, you want adults, not children. It all feels too broken. The adults want nothing, they don't want life. The child one... she is the only one who can be right now.
It just feels too broken. We feel too broken. We have no fight in this. I know, I know, you didn't sign up for this. Sometimes it feels like you are too much like the mother. Sometimes you seem too fragile. We won't inflict this on you. I don't yet know if we will come back. It feels like more pain than we can bear. These pieces won't go back together. | just don't want anymore. I've had enough. |
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Human Feeling
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
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#22
Saturation point. Still on the fence as to whether I'm going to be brave enough to touch the stuff that really screws me up in this last session before the festive break.
__________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Magnate
Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
Posts: 2,170
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#23
I wish you could take all my shittiness away.
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
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#24
Dear T,
Miss you. Want to talk about the ex-MC stuff. And more about the stuff from Thursday/Friday, too. But will wait till Wednesday. LT |
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Roses are falling.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Seattle.
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#25
Hey T,
I'm happy but just tired more than anything. __________________ |
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Member Since Jan 2018
Location: USA
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#26
Today was the second time in the last 4 weeks that you cancelled on me the day of our session. Today you said you’re sick, but I’ve got to wonder... are you just sick of me? Sure, you were able to fit me in later this week, but not until Friday afternoon. May as well just wait til Monday at that point.
I’m sitting at the office trying not to cry because I won’t get to see you until Friday and I feel so stupid and needy for it. I don’t even have much/anything to talk about. |
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Magnate
Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
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#27
I made you a Christmas gift. Do I give it to you this week or next?
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Magnate
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Location: UK
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#28
I miss you lots now.
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Poohbah
Member Since Jul 2017
Location: Somewhere
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#29
I am so stuck in this depression and I can't get out of it. I usually love the cold weather, but today I hated it. I feel like I'm not me. I am trying to be mindful during the day, but I just can't stand how long a minute lasts. It is quite painful. Something is not right with me.
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Grand Member
Member Since Aug 2017
Location: United States
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#30
Hi T,
You're going to help me with this interview, right? Please? Love you! <3 |
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
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#31
Are you relieved/grateful that I don't look at you?
I feel dirty and guilty and bad for wanting to look at you Like it's invasive and dirty to want that emotional intimacy. I'm bad and you shouldn't have to look at me or have me look at you. That you shouldn't have to see me That I'm taking something I shouldn't have You shouldn't have to be part of something so shameful You should be disgusted by the idea |
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Magnate
Member Since Feb 2017
Location: North America
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#32
Possible trigger:
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jan 2014
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#33
Not sure what possessed me to do it but I was in the general area of your office at our appointment time. So I went out of my way to drive over. I dont know what I was expecting but it it was so sad. There building was completely dark and no cars to be found. That never happened when we were meeting there. It was so sad. I wanted to park in my typical spot but I couldn't. It felt so creepy and painful. I wanted to cry but I just couldn't allow it. I know that use to drive you crazy. But I have cries so much since losing you. I will allow the feelings but not the tears. The emotions are a huge step for me, right.
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Poohbah
Member Since Oct 2018
Location: Canada
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#34
I survived your exams. They weren’t as bad as I thought and I can’t wait to see you on Thursday.
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Poohbah
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#35
I keep losing things at work, my meds., etc. My mind is next, I think. This is really stressful and I hate being me. I am so tired, I just want to sleep until summer. I don't know if you are going to make it through this with me, because I don't know if I am going to make it. I feel like I need to hibernate.
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Junior Member
Member Since Jul 2018
Location: Earth
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#36
I think this is what I need to say to you next Thursday:
I think you overreacted last session, and I think you seriously overstepped. I don't think we can continue to work together if we can't agree on that. This is really hard for me because I grew up with people who never admitted their mistakes and doubled down when confronted with them. I didn't come here today to walk back into the same conversation I walked out of last session. I came to see if we could move forward, and I have suggestions for things I'd like to work on that I think will help me. |
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
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#37
I should have told you that you didn't need to apologize
That was the most helpful thing you said today I really believed you when you said it because you didn't mean to react that strongly It didn't feel like you were just saying what you're supposed to say Do you know how much of a relief it was to know that you really do believe it was bull***? You believe me. |
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#38
**** you bringing up shame on my last session for the year and i wont see you for 6 weeks. **** **** ****
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Magnate
Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
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#39
Miss you. I'm looking forward to seeing you tomorrow.
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Member
Member Since Oct 2018
Location: the astral plane
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#40
I hope that I like your recommendation. I'm ready to move on, even though I wish that I didn't have to.
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