[Rive1976]

I dont think I have ever felt so distraught in my entire life. So I emailed my T and told her the chatter I hear has decreased with my lower Invega dose and now she says I may not have DID but maybe I am bipolar. I f-ing quit life. All I want is a freaking solid answer.

[susannahsays]

You're never going to get a solid answer with this therapist. She is terrible.

[piggy momma]

It took me well over ten years to get a “solid” answer. Even the dumb twat of a psychiatrist completely misdiagnosed me last April - he was soooo wrong it was scary.

Hang in there - it takes time to get a proper diagnosis but once you finally do, things get better. The problem is so many conditions share symptoms with each other - ie over 50% of conditions have anxiety as a component. So you might have X condition, and it has anxiety, but you don’t have a diagnosis of anxiety.

It’s a messy field, diagnostically speaking.

[Rive1976]

So last week she got mad that I said I didnt think I had DID and this week she says she doesnt know if its DID or bipolar wtf? I just wish she would make up her ****ing mind. Anyway, I pissed her off and I feel a termination coming. I told her if she planned on terminating me dont bother to call me in for that session. I can use that time to find a new therapist. ( i didnt say that part) but I can. So we shall see. I dont think if we do have a session tommorow it will go well. Shes pissed and I am pissed.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS Dnester.

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by Dnester

So last week she got mad that I said I didnt think I had DID and this week she says she doesnt know if its DID or bipolar wtf? I just wish she would make up her ****ing mind. Anyway, I pissed her off and I feel a termination coming. I told her if she planned on terminating me dont bother to call me in for that session. I can use that time to find a new therapist. ( i didnt say that part) but I can. So we shall see. I dont think if we do have a session tommorow it will go well. Shes pissed and I am pissed.

Hugs...could you maybe seek out someone who does psychological testing? Some psychologists and psychiatrists are trained in this. Maybe you could try to get a more formal diagnosis from an expert? This T doesn't seem to be helping, as I'd imagine treatment for bipolar and DID are quite different. Does a psychiatrist prescribe the Invega? If so, perhaps try consulting with him or her?

[Betty_Banana]

Originally Posted by Dnester

I dont think I have ever felt so distraught in my entire life. So I emailed my T and told her the chatter I hear has decreased with my lower Invega dose and now she says I may not have DID but maybe I am bipolar. I f-ing quit life. All I want is a freaking solid answer.

OMG that proves she has no clue WTF she's doing.You really need to go in to your session and say exactly what you think.Write down everything you want to say and ask so that you don't forget because you're upset.Read it to her if you have to,but you need to speak up and straighten things out.

My advice is to get away from her and find someone else.ASAP

[Rive1976]

Originally Posted by Betty_Banana

OMG that proves she has no clue WTF she's doing.You really need to go in to your session and say exactly what you think.Write down everything you want to say and ask so that you don't forget because you're upset.Read it to her if you have to,but you need to speak up and straighten things out.

My advice is to get away from her and find someone else.ASAP

Should I go back to my old Psychologist. The one that initially diagnosed me with DID or DDnos? She is a psychologist so she would be better with diagnosis in general right?

[Betty_Banana]

Honestly?I think you might be better off starting fresh with someone new.You have already said some things about the psychologist before that are questionable.

Maybe start with someone new and let them form their own opinion and diagnosis without the influence of any previous professional you have seen.You don't have to consent to having your records or info released.

But of course what you do is your own choice.You need to do what's best for you.Not knowing you or your situation in real life,nobody here can decide for you.

But if I was in your shoes I would start fresh with someone I had never seen before and go from there.

[zoiecat]

Good luck. My T diagnosed me with DID almost 2 years ago. He has witnessed me switching and has talked to some of my alters.

My pdoc doesn't even believe in DID. She keeps thinking it is psychosis and they will go away with meds. She alwats asks me if ai still have the multiple personalities. Hello? It has been called that in years and I wish it was that simple. I have to get a new pdoc.

[ArtleyWilkins]

Originally Posted by Dnester

Should I go back to my old Psychologist. The one that initially diagnosed me with DID or DDnos? She is a psychologist so she would be better with diagnosis in general right?

It's actually best that someone who doesn't have preconceived ideas about you and your diagnosis actually do the psychological testing. If you have insurance, it can be paid for by insurance; you'll need to make some calls until you find a psychologist who does testing (not all of them do testing as part of their practice while others specialize in testing).

It seems like it is time to get that testing done objectively rather than this therapist just randomly throwing out diagnoses without testing. What you have written about your therapist doesn't inspire much confidence in her skills. A competent therapist, by this point, would probably have suggested outside testing by now because of the confusion about your diagnosis.

[Rive1976]

Problem, the only therapist that I can find that does testing for Dissociative Disorders is my old Psychologist. There are a couple of men but I dislike men so that is not an option. There are some therapist but thats the problem now. I am seeing a therapist instead of psychologist. Apparently she won doctor of the year in 2017.

[Rive1976]

So this is how it went down

Me: Hey I was wondering if this chatter may be racing thoughts not DID because they have decreased on the lower Invega.
Her: I dont know if these are bipolar thoughts or DID. Just keep recording in your journal the chatter.
Me: Why would I keep a journal of things you dont believe exist. Then I will just be sitting there wondering if you think I am full of ****.
Her: Wherever did you get that idea- you are making assumptions- when did I not say I didnt believe you.
Me: Well you cant tell me my diagnosis is DID or bipolar
Her: I am done with this communication. It is not helpful. Use coping strategies to calm yourself. I will see you tommorow. I will not be responding to any texts or emails at this time.

Am I in the wrong?

[ArtleyWilkins]

Originally Posted by Dnester

Problem, the only therapist that I can find that does testing for Dissociative Disorders is my old Psychologist. There are a couple of men but I dislike men so that is not an option. There are some therapist but thats the problem now. I am seeing a therapist instead of psychologist. Apparently she won doctor of the year in 2017.

Testing, quite honestly, requires very little interaction with the psychologist doing the testing, and what interaction there is is rather structured around the testing protocols. It isn’t like therapy. It’s actually rather impersonal. You might find the gender of the psychologist doesn’t matter much.

[Rive1976]

Originally Posted by ArtleyWilkins

Testing, quite honestly, requires very little interaction with the psychologist doing the testing, and what interaction there is is rather structured around the testing protocols. It isn’t like therapy. It’s actually rather impersonal. You might find the gender of the psychologist doesn’t matter much.

I prefer no interaction with males at all.

[ChickenNoodleSoup]

Was this over email or text, or in person?

I don't necessarily think that your T doesn't believe you. It might be that she's just unsure herself and is trying to figure stuff out. In that case reading your journal would help, whatever it turns out to be in the end. It's sometimes hard to tell what exactly is wrong and can take a while until it's clear.

However, if she really did respond that way to your things, I still don't think it's helpful. Even if you are making assumptions or get angry that she doesn't know your diagnosis, it's not okay for her to just stop a session if it was in a session. If it was via email I think it might be that she doesn't want to discuss this in such detail and to such lenghts without seeing you. It's hard to do therapy over text. So she maybe suggested that you try to relax for a bit and that you guys can talk about it tomorrow?

[Betty_Banana]

Originally Posted by Dnester

Problem, the only therapist that I can find that does testing for Dissociative Disorders is my old Psychologist. There are a couple of men but I dislike men so that is not an option. There are some therapist but thats the problem now. I am seeing a therapist instead of psychologist. Apparently she won doctor of the year in 2017.

But you have been repeatedly saying you don't have a dissociative disorder here so I don't understand why you want to find a psychologist that tests for them anyway.

You just need to start from scratch,go see someone and don't tell them what you think you do or don't have and just let them decide all that.

[Rive1976]

Originally Posted by ChickenNoodleSoup

Was this over email or text, or in person?

I don't necessarily think that your T doesn't believe you. It might be that she's just unsure herself and is trying to figure stuff out. In that case reading your journal would help, whatever it turns out to be in the end. It's sometimes hard to tell what exactly is wrong and can take a while until it's clear.

However, if she really did respond that way to your things, I still don't think it's helpful. Even if you are making assumptions or get angry that she doesn't know your diagnosis, it's not okay for her to just stop a session if it was in a session. If it was via email I think it might be that she doesn't want to discuss this in such detail and to such lenghts without seeing you. It's hard to do therapy over text. So she maybe suggested that you try to relax for a bit and that you guys can talk about it tomorrow?

Yeah it was email. I understand all of that. I just dont feel like wasting time on her to figure it all thst when msybe I can go get diagnosis whatever they may be then come back to her for treatment of whatever or stay with this new person which looks like it may be my old psychologist.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Dnester

So this is how it went down

Me: Hey I was wondering if this chatter may be racing thoughts not DID because they have decreased on the lower Invega.
Her: I dont know if these are bipolar thoughts or DID. Just keep recording in your journal the chatter.
Me: Why would I keep a journal of things you dont believe exist. Then I will just be sitting there wondering if you think I am full of ****.
Her: Wherever did you get that idea- you are making assumptions- when did I not say I didnt believe you.
Me: Well you cant tell me my diagnosis is DID or bipolar
Her: I am done with this communication. It is not helpful. Use coping strategies to calm yourself. I will see you tommorow. I will not be responding to any texts or emails at this time.

Am I in the wrong?

I don't think either of you is in the wrong. Your T did sound blunt in her response. But it's hard to sort stuff out via text or email. It sounds like she wants you to sit with the uncertainty, journal it, and then discuss it with her when you see her tomorrow. I know it's hard to not know your DX. My T never told me my DX, only my PDOC and my GP. Diagnosing someone is not easy as so many symptoms overlap. Try to use your coping strategies like your T said, keep writing here on PC and take it one day at a time. Deep breaths. HUGS Kit

[susannahsays]

You know I am no fan of your therapist. However, this did not seem like a very urgent email and you have said that she has asked you to decrease the number of emails you send. I also don't think expecting her to field your differential diagnosis questions over email is reasonable. And you don't even have long to wait to see her.