Anger

I don't want to get into the details right now, but I am so angry I could spew!

I am TRYING to stay at work, but it's difficult.

I am TRYING not to lose my cool, but it's difficult. My T STILL isn't back, and I can't yell at her, via text, email, or face-to-face! I might be able to, in a phone session, but I don't think it's a good idea. She hasn't updated her VM message for this week, yet.

In my younger days, when I got this angry, I would clean the house. I think I've said here, in the past, that because of chronic health problems, I can't do this, anymore. If I can just stay at work, then maybe I won't SH. With all the anxiety I've felt lately, it's been a struggle for me NOT to SH. If I just go home, I'm pretty certain there's at least a 50-50 chance of SH happening.

I just told TPTB that I am leaving (not quitting, just leaving) the office at 3.

In talking to my Pdoc last week, he and I agreed that he wouldn't answer my emails, that I am to call him in an emergency, but emailing him and expecting answers from him might start a transference, and he knows I don't want that with him.

We are supposed to get half a foot of snow starting sometime tomorrow. Maybe I just won't go in to the office at all, tomorrow.

Ok, now the shaky hands have begun. isn't mental ill-health fun?