[Tryingtobehappy5]

Hey everyone!

I have never posted on this board(or really read it either)
before but therapy is getting frustrating and I feel like I need more support to keep me going. I know quitting isnt best for me. I am not exactly working hard on it but I honestly dont know what I am supposed to do either.

I have been seeing the same T for 2 years since starting meds and having many serious episodes and attempts. We arent getting anywhere and the longer I have been going the less either of us have tried and now its like a stupid chat for an hour every 2 weeks. She will ask me if I want CBT materials or something and I will say no and she will send me an email with a link about epigenetics or narcissistic mothers(mine is one). Its just not working this way.

Just got a new Pdoc after my last attempt which sent me to a larger hospital where she took me on as a patient due to the poor care by my previous Pdoc and the extreme hopelessness I was feeling. She is amazing and I am seeing her every 3-4 weeks so far though we have only had one visit since I left the hospital.

I am trying to figure out how to make therapy be what it is supposed to be but right now I get more out of seeing my Pdoc or GP.