Dear T: I really need to tell you something XXXIX

DP_2017 · Apr 15, 2019 at 10:52 AM

I could use a hug from you right now. I can't believe how far I've backtracked since you left. I'm a disgrace

Lemoncake · Apr 15, 2019 at 11:44 AM

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Originally Posted by DP_2017

I could use a hug from you right now. I can't believe how far I've backtracked since you left. I'm a disgrace

You're doing your best DP that's all that matters.

Lemoncake · Apr 15, 2019 at 11:46 AM

1.15 hours till registration opens....

Lemoncake · Apr 15, 2019 at 01:12 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

1.15 hours till registration opens....

Not the date I wanted, but I guess it all works out in the end so it doesn't really matter and there's only 4 days between the 29th and my new exam date 03.05.2019 at 11am.

ElectricManatee · Apr 15, 2019 at 01:21 PM

I probably feel uneasy toward you because I'm starting to get upset at my mom again. It wouldn't be the first time I dragged you into that. I wish I could feel consistently close to you, but you feel so far away right now.

SlumberKitty · Apr 15, 2019 at 01:58 PM

T--I'm upset with you that you had to cancel. I understand things come up. But I need you today and you're not there. In fact, I'm starting to realize you aren't there for me most of the time. You've never said stuff like, "I'm on your team" like former T would. You probably never give me a second thought anyway. I'm really upset with you. At the same time, I hope everything is okay for you. I don't know what you meant by family emergency. I hope it's not serious. Kit

Echos Myron redux · Apr 15, 2019 at 02:28 PM

Hi T, hope you're having a happy Monday (no musical puns intended). Love you, Echos

susannahsays · Apr 15, 2019 at 02:34 PM

I am probably developing bedsores because all I do is stay in bed. I am essentially bedridden.

Jessica Hazlitt · Apr 15, 2019 at 03:44 PM

You have no idea how much this is killing me.

chihirochild · Apr 15, 2019 at 03:48 PM

I, um, think I may have been right about me falling into the abyss.

Eff.

Apr 15, 2019 at 03:55 PM

L, everything, all of it, has worked together for my good. I am so grateful and I hope you know that.

LostOnTheTrail · Apr 15, 2019 at 04:09 PM

Gauntlet...

Well-meaning people asking stupid questions, rather than listening.
This has been even more excruciating than usual.

susannahsays · Apr 15, 2019 at 04:16 PM

I don't want to go to yoga.

I want to stay in bed and maybe die.

piggy momma · Apr 15, 2019 at 04:17 PM

You told me today you’re enjoying working with me. Even tho I wasn’t too impressed with you at the start of our session that made me feel better.

blackocean · Apr 15, 2019 at 04:27 PM

Your words and your actions don’t match.

susannahsays · Apr 15, 2019 at 05:51 PM

I'm furious with you! If you were here right now I would probably make an ugly face and scowl horribly like I did that other time!

You need to do something to make me feel better! I feel bad! I hate it!

Pay attention to me!

LonesomeTonight · Apr 15, 2019 at 06:01 PM

Dear T,
You said some things today that really challenged me. In the past, I'd likely have felt hurt. And there was a fleeting moment where I felt that from something (OK, two things) you said today. But I realize you were saying those things to help me. I think that's progress? They are things/truths I need to realize and deal with.

I wish you'd start saying "take care" again...would it be weird to ask for that?
Love,
LT

Apr 15, 2019 at 06:42 PM

Hey you. I was about half an inch away from calling you on my walk this afternoon. I really just want to say hello and check in briefly because I guess I really don't want to fully close the door on maybe doing more work with you down the road at some point. If you haven't retired by then of course. I know you always said you hope to still be working when you're 100 but...
eta: i am not sure it's ok for me to call after 2 months of silence.
etaa: I do remember a really long time ago after that first rupture you said "You can always call" or something like that.

kaleidoscopeheart · Apr 15, 2019 at 08:04 PM

Dear T,

I am feeling really disorganized when it comes to you. I don't know what to do or how I am feeling or why I am feeling this way. Gah. My next session is going to be horrible. I can already tell. I'm pulling way back and I can't seem to stop that.

LabRat27 · Apr 16, 2019 at 01:42 AM

Possible trigger:

I want to hurt myself to get a reaction from you tomorrow.
See?
This is why me telling you when I do is a bad idea

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DP_2017 Grand Magnate Member Since Aug 2017 Location: A house Posts: 4,412 6 665 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 10:52 AM #861 I could use a hug from you right now. I can't believe how far I've backtracked since you left. I'm a disgrace __________________ Grief is the price you pay for love.
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Lemoncake Luna's offical mini me. Member Since May 2017 Location: Cafe Nervosa. Posts: 9,700 (SuperPoster!) 6 10.2k hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 11:46 AM #863 1.15 hours till registration opens.... __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing."
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ElectricManatee Magnate Member Since May 2017 Location: Earth Posts: 2,515 6 4,704 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 01:21 PM #865 I probably feel uneasy toward you because I'm starting to get upset at my mom again. It wouldn't be the first time I dragged you into that. I wish I could feel consistently close to you, but you feel so far away right now.
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Echos Myron redux Magnate Member Since Apr 2018 Location: UK Posts: 2,161 6 1,834 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 02:28 PM #867 Hi T, hope you're having a happy Monday (no musical puns intended). Love you, Echos
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susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 02:34 PM #868 I am probably developing bedsores because all I do is stay in bed. I am essentially bedridden. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold
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Jessica Hazlitt Member Member Since Sep 2014 Location: UK Posts: 394 9 25 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 03:44 PM #869 You have no idea how much this is killing me.
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chihirochild Magnate Member Since Feb 2017 Location: North America Posts: 2,360 7 4,865 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 03:48 PM #870 I, um, think I may have been right about me falling into the abyss. Eff.
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Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	Apr 15, 2019 at 03:55 PM #871 L, everything, all of it, has worked together for my good. I am so grateful and I hope you know that.
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susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 04:16 PM #873 I don't want to go to yoga. I want to stay in bed and maybe die. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold
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piggy momma Poohbah Member Since Oct 2018 Location: Canada Posts: 1,073 5 70 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 04:17 PM #874 You told me today you’re enjoying working with me. Even tho I wasn’t too impressed with you at the start of our session that made me feel better.
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blackocean Member Member Since Aug 2018 Location: USA Posts: 244 5 28 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 04:27 PM #875 Your words and your actions don’t match.
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susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 05:51 PM #876 I'm furious with you! If you were here right now I would probably make an ugly face and scowl horribly like I did that other time! You need to do something to make me feel better! I feel bad! I hate it! Pay attention to me! __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold
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kaleidoscopeheart Member Member Since Apr 2017 Location: Parts Unknown Posts: 333 7 77 hugs given	Apr 15, 2019 at 08:04 PM #879 Dear T, I am feeling really disorganized when it comes to you. I don't know what to do or how I am feeling or why I am feeling this way. Gah. My next session is going to be horrible. I can already tell. I'm pulling way back and I can't seem to stop that.
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LabRat27 Poohbah Member Since Mar 2018 Location: CA Posts: 1,009 6 2,354 hugs given	Apr 16, 2019 at 01:42 AM #880 Possible trigger: I want to hurt myself to get a reaction from you tomorrow. See? This is why me telling you when I do is a bad idea
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