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🙌🏼 up if you sometimes feel you were better off before you began therapy. It’s driving me insane!
Edit: But feel you’ll be worse if you leave. *sighs* Last edited by darkside8; Mar 16, 2019 at 03:26 PM. |
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Not personally, but I have read that some people feel that way - so you're not alone.
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Totally get it. I have no idea if therapy is helping me at this point, but I’m terrified to find out the hard way. |
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Hands up sometimes. I find myself thinking it was easier before I put myself in a circumstance that seems to rip open wounds and leave me exposed and vulnerable. I keep on walking tho...
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Sometimes I wish I never went/met him, but I'm also grieving him being gone
Realistically I know he added a lot of good to my life and was there when I really needed him.
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Yes, I feel this way sometimes too - therapy has brought up a lot of difficult things that I usually try to avoid thinking about.
I've had quite an extended break from therapy as my T has been away for 2.5 months. I really missed her at the beginning, but more recently I seem to have been able to detach from the process a bit... and now I'm starting to wonder if I even want to go back. So puzzling to me as I never would have guessed I'd feel this way after my last session in December |
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When I was doing some intense trauma work, talking very explicitly and in detail about the past-- it was more the crazy dynamics around the abuse as much as the abuse itself-- because it was clear to me how those dynamics ran through everyday life-- those periods were definitely a time of things being terrible. That was totally worth it, though, the hold it once had on me is just a whisp now. It's good to look back and realize it.
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#8
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Sometimes I feel like I was better off before therapy but then I absolutely know I'm not ready to live without it. It's frustrating. HUGS Kit
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#9
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Before Therapy:
1. Bulimic 2. Self Harming 3. Desperately getting attention from men by giving away my body to them. (Not always a bad thing but left me feeling empty) 4. Always planning my suicide 5. Never succeeding in a career After Therapy: (ok after like 7 years of therapy) 1. Bulimia gone 2. Stopped self harming 3. Sexless (ok well that sucks) 4. Longer stretches of being suicide thoughts free 5. Own my own personal training business. Went to school and became a licensed massage therapist. Yes the attachment is painful and I know I can not stay forever.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors. |
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