[Fuzzybear]

I wish I could trust a therapist in real life, even a little...

I’m not sure what happened in my very early childhood... I do know about some of it.... and it hurt me deeply. I’m not complaining just explaining

I’m going to phone a phone line tonight. I seem to be able to talk to a stranger for one or two sessions and that’s it. I run away.

I’m not sure if I have “too much” insight for them to want to help me
Or “not enough” insight for them to want to help me..

I do know I do not find labels without help or compassion helpful. I look for the good in others, or I try to.... not labels.
(I do not live in the USA, if I could I might move there or to somewhere else, Not this particular forest irl. Please be gentle. I do not get joy from bashing anyone or any negativity ... I’m just trying to survive

I might post a short update..

How much do I tell them? Do I tell them anything (a helpline or professional irl)

Fuzzy *hugs*.

Stay strong. Post here as much as you feel is helpful.

There’s nothing wrong with taking a while to trust help. Most people are good people IMO but deep trust has to be earned. Glad you are considering reaching out for help ❤️

[DP_2017]

Trust is hard for some people, me included. It takes time... and not everyone is worth trusting. Share what you feel comfortable with on the phone or in person, there is no set rules on it, just do what's best for you

[Omers]

I suck at trust. Royally suck... until current T. First session he said very calmly, gently but firmly “trust starts here. With me.” He was right. He is SO good at being trustworthy even though things were bad for me all the way back to infancy... well, with my moms drinking and drugs maybe even earlier... anyway... T has been so trustworthy and so gentle but never expects to be trusted, just grateful when it happens. I wish I could box him up and send him to you... but he doesn’t much like boxes and I am stingy. If you ever come to the USA though I will share
Try what ever works for you to get yourself through. Just keep trying and keep yourself safe. Post here if it feels safer. You can also PM Zoe if you need but I have not been as reliable at getting back to people as I would like.
Hugs