[hopealwayz]

I am in pain after my session today because I followed my thoughts into a dark place in today’s session and I have to wait 7 days to talk about it.

[hopealwayz]

I feel like I messed up today’s session.

[piggy momma]

Can you email your T? Otherwise maybe journal about it to get your feelings out and sorted.

[coolibrarian]

1. Write down your feelings.
2. Breathe.
3. Exercise, yoga, nia, tai chi
4. Go for a walk

[hopealwayz]

I can email T about it but I want to get my thoughts sorted out and together so it doesn’t sound rambled.

[Xynesthesia2]

Write about it here in a bit more detail?

[Taylor27]

Can you write more on here, i find sometimes venting here really helps me after a painful session, or email him, if it is something more urgent phone him. Hugs

[LonesomeTonight]

I find sometimes that typing it up in an email draft, then letting it sit till the next morning (or longer) and editing it then as needed can help.

[ArtleyWilkins]

Sometimes I just needed to let things settle for a day or so. Sessions can be intense and leave sort of a hangover effect, but generally given a day or so, those intense feelings settled down with time and distance, enough to be okay until the next session.

[hopealwayz]

Thanks everyone for the excellent suggestions.

I think it was me realizing how far I am now from where I want to be.

I was talking about feeling trapped in my life and feeling like my life isn’t mine since my mom died and everything changed.

And then I was talking about my future goals and he suggested that I focus on smaller goals first so I feel a sense of accomplishment.

I told him that I was tired of caring about everything and that was followed with how emotionally exhausted I feel and about not having the energy to do everything.

Then I worried about boring him.

And I told him that I was upset about the missed appointment fee due to oversleeping and that I didn’t mean to do it and I told him that it was the only time that happened since I’ve been there but he didn’t comment on what I was saying.

And I told him about my dilemma regarding being able to afford the orthopedic doctor next week about my neck and my worries about having to cancel therapy sessions in May so that I can pay for the orthopedic doctor.

[FearLess47]

It very much sucks to have to choose which appointments one can afford. That is super stressful and can be anxiety inducing.

It is also so annoying when my brain goes a little haywire after a session and I feel the need to amend, add, delete or change something I said or didn't say. Try writing down your feelings and hold nothing back. (Then maybe even shredding or getting rid of what you wrote.) Then wait. A day. Two. Sometimes perspectives shift after a little time has passed.

Then write down any points you want to discuss next session or address via text/email.

Hope it passes and resolves better than expected!
FearLess47

[hopealwayz]

I hope that I feel better about it. Right now, I feel awful.

[Mopey]

All I can say, Hope, is that I can relate, I think, very much to what you are going through. I went through a long period of time with a group, and with a therapist I had a dicey relationship with, when I would suffer through the weeks between our meetings (because we met once weekly), worrying and worrying about something I had done, but there was absolutely nothing I could do about it until the next week. And even then I wasn't sure if I'd get a chance to talk in the group. There were other people with other issues. I would think, oh, if I could only talk about this again, deal with this again, everything would be all right. But often it wasn't. Often the next meeting would just make it worse.

Looking back on this, and it was decades ago, I believe that part of the tremendous anxiety I had about everything that happened was that it was a very poor match between the group therapist and myself. I just didn't realize it then.

My best wishes to you.

[hopealwayz]

Could it be that I allowed myself to feel extremely vulnerable and when I left, I just felt weird because I was in a vulnerable state? Like I felt extremely exposed and embarrassed because I’m not used to that. I just feel embarrassed for yesterday.

[LostOnTheTrail]

That sounds quite likely, Hope. Brené Brown talks about the vulnerability hangover.

You could Google for more info, but I really liked this.
When you wake up with a vulnerability hangover — Susan B. Arico

[hopealwayz]

Thanks for sharing that, I will check it out.

[hopealwayz]

That sounds exactly what it is.

[FearLess47]

Originally Posted by hopealwayz

Could it be that I allowed myself to feel extremely vulnerable and when I left, I just felt weird because I was in a vulnerable state? Like I felt extremely exposed and embarrassed because I’m not used to that. I just feel embarrassed for yesterday.

Yessssssssssssss!!!!