I have seen my psychologist for about 2 years and a bit. Before that I had a emotional,verbal abusive student therapist before hand. To give you an idea he would say things such as "Your mother shouldn't of had kids" to "You are not doing the work" to being told a week before that therapy was going to end not even my Occupational therapist knew who worked a long side him. I had increased unhelpful thoughts and unhelpful harm on oneself. It take a whole year for my current psychologist to undo the damage what that student therapist did. Never in my life cause I have seen a few therapist, experience a therapist like that. I would say it be "therapist of nightmares".
Anyway Therapy ending in March. I was told about this mid last year. I have been freaking out ever since then. The closer it gets, I feel my anxiety has increased dramatically. I struggled to even go to a art class because I was afarid the art teacher will be mean. Because of what these other people from a art store told me about that art teacher. I literally broke down and cried and couldn't go into the class room when my partner drove me there. I did spoke to my therapist about this the day before and use the Dailet behaviour therapy skills but it didnt work for me.
I experience OCD so...that has got more worse. Since my therapist prayed with me a month ago and told me afterwards how it went over practice of therapy. But they felt I was more important than that.
The problem is with that I experience religious OCD so... it really pushed that. So now I get afarid of certain people in my life putting curses on me so I pray to God for protection or listen to Latin pray chants from YouTube driving to the place who I'm gonna visit that person.
I struggle to sleep and get nightmares. Rescently I have notice I'm very sensitive to rejection to the point I will cry, even if it's something my family would say to me.

Can someone tell me what's going on? I feel confused,afraid, scared. I fear it's going to
get worse.

[divine1966]

Have you talked to your doctor. If you are in general feeling worse you might need to increase in dosage if you are on meds. If you are not on meds you might need to be. My husband has severe OCD but meds even the low dose he is on makes his life easier and he can function and maintain professional job. He wouldn’t be able to function just on therapy alone

[satsuma]

Hi Teafruit. I’m sorry that you’re going through all of this! It’s really a shame that you had a bad student therapist inflicted and had such a bad start with therapy.
I am wondering why this therapy is ending right now - is it one where you are only offered a certain number of sessions?
I also wonder whether it would be possible for you to look for someone who specialises in OCD, or ask your doctor about this, as they might have a better understanding of what would help the most?

[Taylor27]

Hugs I'm very sorry this is so hard for you. I there any other places you can go to for affordable therapy? I would highly suggest going to your family gp they are a good resource. Also please know that pc is always here for you. Hugs