[nottrustin]

anything you fear or are apprehensive of telling your T??

[Omers]

Oddly, the thing I would be most afraid of telling T about is how messy my house is right now... seems stupid typing it but it is the one part of my life I don’t want T to know about until it is fixed.

[ArtleyWilkins]

Everything? Seriously. Talking was terrifying and I was apprehensive much of the time. I think it was apprehension about breaking my silence. So every time something new about my past was coming up, I was a mess. It got better as I finally got it mostly all out, but the history was trapped inside me so tight, like a pressure cooker. In fact, I think that comparison came up a few times.

[Lrad123]

I would be apprehensive about telling my T that he matters to me in any way. He might matter and he might not. I’m just not sure. And the idea of it makes me feel like I might melt away into a pool of nothingness.

[ScarletPimpernel]

The only real "fear" is telling them my worst secret. I do struggle with telling them about my feelings for them.

I'd be concerned if I wasn't t apprehensive.

[Merope]

I'm extremely fearful of telling him just how much I managed to find out about his life through facebook and google. i don't think i ever willl....I feel too guilty knowing so much and i'm worried he'd see it as a breach of boundaries and terminate me.

[Taylor27]

Almost everything i have experienced in my childhood til i met my husband. It terrifies me to let her know im hurting on a daily basis fear of terminating me and closing my file. I don't want to hide no more i really want to recover so i can move on in life

[coolibrarian]

I started to tell T about something like this last year. I hemmed and hawed, and said a little bit, but I couldn't go through with it. I may never tell her.

[SummerTime12]

Oh I can think of a lot of things... I’m afraid to tell him how much I actually think about him. I’m afraid to tell him about some childhood trauma memories I have (the few left that I’ve never shared with anyone). I’m afraid to ask him if it’s ok to ask for a phone call on the weekend. I’m afraid to tell him some things about my husband. There are a few sexual things I haven’t been able to get out either. Right now I’m also afraid to tell him I’ve basically stopped eating.

[SheHulk07]

Sometimes I'm apprehensive about telling him how badly I SH in fear that he'd put me on a M1 hold. I've told him that fear because I've had it happen twice by another T so I always worry about it happening again.

[nottrustin]

Some of mine are:

How much I appreciate her opinion. How I often wonder what she really thinks. I know she believes in unconditional acceptance. I also know she sees both sides of issues and respects both but ehat are her real beliefs
The extent I struggle sometimes.
When I have the urge to SH. It is not because I fear judgment as much as it is embarrasing.
How I am jealous of some of her accomplishments in life

[SlumberKitty]

Some of my irrational thoughts. They seem rational in my head but later on I can see they are irrational. I'm afraid of showing that side of me because I know it has to do with the psychosis and I don't want to scare her.

Some stuff about Self Harm. Mostly because of the above. I have a lot of irrational thoughts regarding Self Harm and sometimes try to harm myself in irrational ways. Only later do I realize that it is kind of bizarre.
Stuff about my childhood. Mostly because then I'd have to discuss anger and I stuck as discussing anger.

[coolibrarian]

It's interesting to me that some of us are willing to share the details of our SH with our Ts, while others are not. I wrote quite a detailed letter to my T, explaining the form my SH takes, and gave it to her to read. It was so long ago that I don't actually remember if I read it to her, but I know it's in my file. I remember her putting it on her desk.