Couch 202: The Grande Unicorn Frappuccino couch.

ScarletPimpernel · Aug 15, 2019 at 12:31 AM

I just tried mango for the first time with my dad. We both liked it. It's funny that neither of us tried it until today.

chihirochild · Aug 15, 2019 at 12:43 AM

I ate some junk food because I was so bored and now I have a stomach ache :/

My own damn fault, I know.

susannahsays · Aug 15, 2019 at 01:05 AM

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Originally Posted by MobiusPsyche

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SH is such that it's never, ever "enough." It's never bad enough, we will always feel as if we could have done something just a little bit worse to ourselves. SH is seriously addictive on that it takes worse and worse harm to "scratch that itch." I've been there and it's hellish, but you need to make a commitment to stop.

Not a commitment that I'll try really hard not to, not a commitment that I'll try 3 coping skills first, not a commitment that I'll do it so it doesn't require stitches, no half measures will work. You have to decide to quit and have support measures in place to allow you top do that (friend, T, hotline, PC, all of these).

I don't think you feel ready to stop but I want to let you know I felt the same way. My T helped me see that i would never, ever let someone else treat me that way and I would never inflict that on someone else, so it wasn't being true ti who I am to do it to myself. It took giving myself a little compassion before I was able to stop. At first I couldn't even do that, so I used my therapist's compassion toward me as a stepping stone.

I sense from your posts and from the fact you're still doing it that it's filling some need for you. What do you get out of it? For me, it was a way to externalize the pain for a while and it let me feel the punishment I thought I deserved and it kept people very far away from me. For you it might be different. I don't think it matters whether you figure out what function it serves in order to quit. You just need to decide that nobody gets to treat you that way, not even you, and go cold Turkey. If drawing on your body helps, that's great but you need someone to be accountable to. For me it was my T.

I hope you make the choice to stop soon.

But your therapist said it wouldn't be being true to who YOU are. There are many people who allow others to hurt them, or who are unable for whatever reason to defend themselves. Not everybody is you, and that argument won't resound with everybody anyway. And I honestly don't think an all or nothing approach has any benefit over a more gradual reduction since cutting isn't lethal.

I definitely think it matters whether she figures out what that function serves. Lots of people, maybe not you, but many many people use self harm when the feelings become unbearable and they just don't have any other way to cope. SK has been struggling with a lot of SI lately, and that could get worse if she felt she couldn't use this coping mechanism when she doesn't have anything to replace it with.

susannahsays · Aug 15, 2019 at 01:21 AM

I feel foolish. For some reason, when I read "gaming cage worker," I was envisioning something having to do with wild animals. Maybe something like a zookeeper or some asshole at Barnum and Bailey's.

Thank you for enlightening me, CE.

LostOnTheTrail · Aug 15, 2019 at 01:21 AM

Morning, Couch.

The only tea I drink is ordinary tea with milk. I don't care much for herbal or fruit teas. Session's in just over 2.5 hours. Anybody around to pocket ride?

ScarletPimpernel · 02:06 AM

H is at the hospital. I hope he doesn't start it up again.

Eta: Hospital turned him away because all his vital signs (pulse and blood pressure) were normal. Told him to contact his doctors.

JaneTennison1 · Aug 15, 2019 at 06:48 AM

T today. I'm in a much better headspace than last week but I doubt she is that bothered lol It just feels like a big thing to me.

unaluna · Aug 15, 2019 at 07:47 AM

Im waking up a little cranky today because the neighbor guys were up making noise last night. Smoking and laughing on the balcony at 2 in the morning.

I was slurring my words yelling at them, like i was talking in slow motion? I went to the bathroom but i was weirdly dizzy. I guess i wasnt fully awake. I feel bad about yelling at them, but omg the male privilege. "We have a balcony in nice weather!" Morons. Shut. up.

LonesomeTonight · Aug 15, 2019 at 07:51 AM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

H is at the hospital. I hope he doesn't start it up again.

Eta: Hospital turned him away because all his vital signs (pulse and blood pressure) were normal. Told him to contact his doctors.

I'm glad they turned him away! Hopefully this might help him break the habit (and that he won't just try hospitals that are further away).

LostOnTheTrail · Aug 15, 2019 at 11:44 AM

Craving pancakes, but I have no pancake skills.

unaluna · Aug 15, 2019 at 11:49 AM

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Originally Posted by LostOnTheTrail

Craving pancakes, but I have no pancake skills.

Mini couch roadtrip to Denny's!

Or get some eggo waffles. Or some pepperidge farm french toast flavor cinnamon raisin bread. For a minute there, i forgot how to spell raisin.

SlumberKitty · Aug 15, 2019 at 12:19 PM

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Originally Posted by LostOnTheTrail

Morning, Couch.

The only tea I drink is ordinary tea with milk. I don't care much for herbal or fruit teas. Session's in just over 2.5 hours. Anybody around to pocket ride?

I'll hop in if I'm not too late. If I am too late, I hope your session went well. If you ever get a chance to try Kusmi tea, give it a shot. It's really smooth. It's a little expensive so when I get it, it's sort of a treat for myself. I think last time I bought it on Amazon it was $16.99 for 20 teabags. But they are muslin teabags and so it feels a little more special than the paper ones. My family is really peculiar in that we "do teas". We do tea parties and such instead of baby showers, wedding showers, graduation parties etc. Sometimes we do a tea just because. When you are growing up, if you are a girl, you get tea pieces for your hope chest. So by the time you are an adult, you have a full service of tea dishes. Mine are violets. My sister's is Old Country Roses. Another cousin has forget-me-knots. I'm on a tangent. Anyway, enjoy your tea.

unaluna · Aug 15, 2019 at 12:36 PM

I looooove violets. They do tend to spread, though. But they smell so good and look so beautiful.

SlumberKitty · Aug 15, 2019 at 02:24 PM

The air conditioning is making me cold, even though I am wearing long pants and a cardigan. If I put my space heater on, I'm a little too warm. Can't quite get comfortable today. Made me think how I'm not quite comfortable in myself lately. I'm reacting to things I normally wouldn't react to. I'm risk taking when I normally wouldn't. It's like the me I know doesn't quite fit this me that is doing her thing lately. T session can't come soon enough. But I'm trying not to count on it being a good one. I don't want to count on it fixing things and then leaving me worse off. I feel a little less depressed today but I feel like any second the rug is going to be pulled out from under me and I'm going to be worse off. It's a weird, on the edge, feeling. I don't like it.

LonesomeTonight · Aug 15, 2019 at 03:19 PM

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Originally Posted by LostOnTheTrail

Craving pancakes, but I have no pancake skills.

Set heat around medium, wait till a bunch of bubbles form to flip it over.

SlumberKitty · Aug 15, 2019 at 03:28 PM

@LostOnTheTrail, I just should send my Dad over to make you pancakes. He made them for me back to back days this week. Or may I suggest IHOP? HUGS Kit

SlumberKitty · Aug 15, 2019 at 03:30 PM

The former owner was walking around the property, slipped and fell and

Possible trigger:

cut his arm

and had to have it wrapped up with gauze and there is still

Possible trigger:

blood

seeping out of the gauze. I must say, it is triggering me mightily.

SlumberKitty · Aug 15, 2019 at 03:34 PM

Also, the former owner is okay. He probably should go to urgent care because it was rusty there but he probably won't.

unaluna · Aug 15, 2019 at 03:48 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Also, the former owner is okay. He probably should go to urgent care because it was rusty there but he probably won't.

Hopefully he keeps up on his tetanus shots. I do. Otherwise boy he will be sorrrrrrrryyyyyy!

SlumberKitty · Aug 15, 2019 at 03:53 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Hopefully he keeps up on his tetanus shots. I do. Otherwise boy he will be sorrrrrrrryyyyyy!

That's what I said too. Great minds must think alike.

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ScarletPimpernel Wise Elder Member Since Nov 2013 Location: US Posts: 8,413 (SuperPoster!) 10 6,432 hugs given	Aug 15, 2019 at 12:31 AM #941 I just tried mango for the first time with my dad. We both liked it. It's funny that neither of us tried it until today. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica

chihirochild Magnate Member Since Feb 2017 Location: North America Posts: 2,360 7 4,865 hugs given	Aug 15, 2019 at 12:43 AM #942 I ate some junk food because I was so bored and now I have a stomach ache :/ My own damn fault, I know.

susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Aug 15, 2019 at 01:21 AM #944 I feel foolish. For some reason, when I read "gaming cage worker," I was envisioning something having to do with wild animals. Maybe something like a zookeeper or some asshole at Barnum and Bailey's. Thank you for enlightening me, CE. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold

ScarletPimpernel Wise Elder Member Since Nov 2013 Location: US Posts: 8,413 (SuperPoster!) 10 6,432 hugs given	Aug 15, 2019 at 01:33 AM #946 H is at the hospital. I hope he doesn't start it up again. Eta: Hospital turned him away because all his vital signs (pulse and blood pressure) were normal. Told him to contact his doctors. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica Last edited by ScarletPimpernel; Aug 15, 2019 at 02:06 AM..

JaneTennison1 Magnate Member Since Aug 2014 Location: US Posts: 2,202 9 121 hugs given	Aug 15, 2019 at 06:48 AM #947 T today. I'm in a much better headspace than last week but I doubt she is that bothered lol It just feels like a big thing to me.

unaluna Elder Harridan x-hankster Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Milan/Michigan Posts: 39,880 (SuperPoster!) 12 66.4k hugs given	Aug 15, 2019 at 12:36 PM #953 I looooove violets. They do tend to spread, though. But they smell so good and look so beautiful.

SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 15, 2019 at 03:28 PM #956 @LostOnTheTrail, I just should send my Dad over to make you pancakes. He made them for me back to back days this week. Or may I suggest IHOP? HUGS Kit __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA

SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 15, 2019 at 03:30 PM #957 The former owner was walking around the property, slipped and fell and Possible trigger: cut his arm and had to have it wrapped up with gauze and there is still Possible trigger: blood seeping out of the gauze. I must say, it is triggering me mightily. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA

SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 15, 2019 at 03:34 PM #958 Also, the former owner is okay. He probably should go to urgent care because it was rusty there but he probably won't. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA