Don't know what to do

Rive1976 · Aug 30, 2019, 09:21 PM

I stopped seeing my DID Psychologist because every session she started talking this crap about how I could communicate with my alters. Every session I said I couldn't. I felt like I was wasting my time. She told me to go in everyday and get to know my alters which felt like I was literally talking back and forth to myself and not an alter. She was doing hypnotherapy to tell my troubled alters only to come out if I gave permission because they could get all of us in trouble. So in a way she was pushing them away. Now I see my therapist that came back from a 3 month vacation. I have some transference issues with her and wanted to work on the DID with her as well because I knew she wouldn't push me to talk with my alters when thats useless in my opinion. She is telling me to tell my alters not now when they come out which is the same as my Psychologist doing hypnotherapy to tell them not to come out without permission. So why does it feel so much harsher when my therapist tells me to tell them not now? It's the same thing. I wonder why I am feeling wounded by it? I only recently found out that even if a alter is troubled or bad they were created to help you. So I guess I am feeling like she is telling me to tell them to take a hike which is bothering me. On the other hand they arent making my life easier. Blah!