[Victoria'smom]

I’ve had 1 T that I have trusted. All others I fear will hospitalize me or I will scare them and they won’t be able to help me. This fear gets in the way of my treatment. I won’t speak up for fear of med change or hospitalization so I wont say the side effects of meds or anything. I won’t say my issues in detail to get help. I “wait my turn” even when things are bad. I naturally downplay and I’m often quiet. I meet a therapist in 3 weeks that’s willing to meet me weekly. How do I make this work?

[Flinders40]

I totally understand being afraid, but not speaking the truth will leave you stuck. Sometimes you need to take a chance and do the things that may frighten or make you feel uncomfortable. It might feel awful for awhile but ultimately it might be the breakthrough that you need. I really hope you connect with your new therapist and feel comfortable/ safe going ahead.

[Under*Over]

Yeah I totally understand both of those fears- I have them too. I know that when I get sick I get REALLY sick and people tend to panic. And I hate that. I feeling like I am the cause of someones pain, fear, ect.

I think when looking for a therapist it is wise to be a little- picky. Ive scheduled several “first time appointments” in the next few weeks because I want to find someone who is experienced enough to help me- experienced enough so I dont have to make sacrifices myself when it comes to my mental health and not being fully open out of risk of “being too much” for my therapist to handle.

I think its important from the start to be as open as possible about your problems and about THE WORST that you can get so that- if they cant deal- you can find someone else without the pain of having to do so later, potentially in crisis, with a therapist you have developed a relationship with. (I had to do this, my therapist- when I got really sick- decided she was out of her league and referred me out. I have trust issues to begin with so this was hard for me. She said it wasnt my fault- but I tend to think EVERYTHING is my fault- and this situation was just lousy)

Anyways. Dont worry too much about this- because if a therapist CANT help you. Is just not skilled enough- well. If you are going to SCARE a therapist just by being honest... then they shouldnt be working with you. Any therapist who cant handle that- handle your symtpms- probably isnt a good match to begin with.

So dont worry. The only therapist you can scare away is probably one who just isnt right for you anyways.

I hope this is supportive. Its meant to be. If it isnt- if it makes things worse- I apologize.

[Victoria'smom]

I know that when I get sick I get REALLY sick and people tend to panic. And I hate that. I feeling like I am the cause of someones pain, fear, ect.
Thank-you for putting into words what I couldn't.

I think its important from the start to be as open as possible about your problems and about THE WORST that you can get How do you explain that?