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Old Nov 02, 2019, 02:36 PM
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I'm struggling with what I've come to realize is a delusion about my therapist

I'm seeing him tomorrow and I dont know what to expect

I haven't been in 3 weeks . I made a session but cancelled it

I've been communicating with an entity that says it is my T . And says awful things. I have nightmares about my T

I'm scared to say this is not real . Because if I expect it to not be real and if I expect my session to go well , that means it wont

Just asking for pocket riders , tomorrow 2pm EDT
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Old Nov 02, 2019, 03:27 PM
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I’ll hop in
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Old Nov 02, 2019, 03:33 PM
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Me too, JDNA
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Old Nov 02, 2019, 03:40 PM
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Thank u

I cannot stop thinking about it , and feeling the fear

I'm scared he will say goodbye forever

I just dont know how I would cope w that

I've been seeing him for 9 years. I don't even know how this would end . I feel scared that it will end before I am ready , or, able to fully cope with it.
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Old Nov 02, 2019, 03:41 PM
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Therapy is such a strange relationship, and unlike any other .
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Old Nov 02, 2019, 03:49 PM
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I'll hop in your pocket too JD. Try to remember this entity is your brain/ mind playing tricks on you , and leaving you feeling scared , the deep stuff in the subconscious seems to be something that feels real.
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Old Nov 02, 2019, 04:13 PM
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Therapy is such a strange relationship, and unlike any other .

I agree with this. And it can be really intense. And I'll hop in.
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Old Nov 02, 2019, 04:58 PM
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Hugs I'll hop in too our minds can be very tricky when we are anxious. I hope you have a better session then what the fear is telling you think. Too often my fears often turn out to better. It's hard to think it's going to be okay til the session happens. Hugs
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Old Nov 02, 2019, 05:51 PM
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Hugs, jD. I’m in.
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Old Nov 02, 2019, 09:42 PM
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I hope it goes well tomorrow, will join the others in your pocket!
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Old Nov 03, 2019, 05:21 AM
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Will join the others in your pocket!
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Old Nov 03, 2019, 09:23 AM
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Thanks everyone

Today is the day

Trying 2 stay calm.

I hope t and I can go on a walk ...
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Old Nov 03, 2019, 11:07 AM
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I'm in, too, if you want me.

I've come to accept that a lot of my life has been delusion -- it is what it is.

I'll be thinking of you, hoping everything goes well.
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Old Nov 03, 2019, 03:23 PM
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Happy to update that my session went well

T said he has not been communicating with me telepathically (voices/enitity) and that he cant do that . And hes not terminating me

We had a good discussion, we did go on a walk , I am so glad that I went even tho I was scared. And I'm grateful for my therapist . So much

Thanks for being in my pocket yall!

Til next time !
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Old Nov 03, 2019, 05:41 PM
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So glad to hear the session went well hugs
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Old Nov 03, 2019, 06:32 PM
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Also glad it went well!
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