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Poohbah
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#81
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To be getting worse since he came into the picture. I mean if he’s helping you then great, but that’s not what it looks like here. |
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Always in This Twilight
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#82
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#83
LT point taken about not being too open with too many people about my attempt. I actually wrote former T an email about that which she has not responded to yet but hopefully she will. I certainly haven't told everyone in my social group. I didn't tell my work about my attempt just that my depression is really serious right now. I've tried to tell people who I thought would support me. As I felt/feel very vulnerable right now. Also for the past year and a half I've been pushing myself to be more open with people. And Pastor T is reinforcing that, to be connected to people. But today I'm having to endure a talk with the friend that I asked to hold the meds. And the only reason I asked her to do that is because my T made me give them to someone. And wouldn't let me leave her office until I said who I would give them to. The only thing that's done is make me look for more lethal methods, but I'm not saying that to anyone, because after the talk with my parents last night and the talk with this friend today, I'm done talking. Except I guess I have to tell Pastor T tomorrow. Oh s----.
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#84
I dont know. I haven't seen him in 3 weeks and I still spiraled. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel like I'm out of options. And the fact that I feel that way makes me feel like I'm going to end up at the hospital soon. I just have to keep surviving somehow.
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Child of a lesser god
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#85
Given the feelings Pastor T has stirred up in you about religion and sh, I don’t think you have to have seen him recently for his influence to cause you to spiral.
Whose idea was Pastor T, btw? Yours? Your parents’? And why did it have to be him specifically and not another therapist who does what he does? Why a therapist who would have two dual relationships from the word go—one with you as a parishioner and a second with your parents as parishioners? And then add a third with his wife as an accountability partner? I very definitely would not tell him anything, past or current, until I saw signs he was actually helping me. |
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#86
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Your pastor T does not appear to be helping at all. Things are escalating and you deserve better. |
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#87
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Depressing, but true. |
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#89
On a positive note, I got my Christmas presents wrapped this afternoon/evening. I didn't wrap like 12 of my coworkers presents bc I just got them chocolate. Then for the girls at work and the big bosses I put their gifts in gift bags. So all the wrapping I did was for my parents, my sister, her kids, her husband, and friends of mine. Now I just need to wrap stocking stuffers. Just went out and bought six more toys for the toy drive at Church bc the Pastor said we are only halfway to our goal. I'm about out of money though, so if he says that next week, I'm not sure I can do more. But at least six more is six more.
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Grand Magnate
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#90
I got almost all the things I had to get, have one more paycheck before Christmas, will finish then. I have only wrapped a few, though. The girls and I went out shopping today and sat in a big circle tonight wrapping stuff. It's not a horrible tradition, spending time together doing something we all hate.
I have tweaked my knee again somehow, that'll be extra fun on the stairs at work this week. Here's hoping I don't have to take it to the orthopedic's office, I don't have time or money for another surgery. Hugs and head-nods for you all. Have a good night! |
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#91
Good night @StressedMess. Sleep good!
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#92
The boys are putting together the new tree stand. They are razzing each other, and me. I am razzing back. We are all laughing together, and it is delightful. We had a tree adventure today, pretty much the same thing. We didn't have any clue how to tether the tree to the top of my car, but we all did it anyway, and it stayed on, and we h
Here's what just struck me: I stopped doing that. "You're always (yelling/nagging/being rude/being mean) to everyone all the time," got so stuck in my head that I couldn't enjoy even this kind of silly "Rotten kids, I shoulda gotta goldfish" banter because I never knew when it might come back and get thrown in my face. I can breathe. I can joke with my kids. (Also, totally glad I didn't get a boring goldfish.) __________________ Since you cannot do good to all, you are to pay special attention to those who, by accidents of time, or place, or circumstance, are brought into closer connection with you. (St. Augustine) |
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Poohbah
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#93
It's almost 2am and I am still wide awake.
I had to laugh - we've had a number of incidents of patients being violent at work. There are only 2 female security guards in our hospital and the two of us have been kicking butt and the guys are acting all afraid while we're getting stuff done. There is one guy at work who is pretty young that I cannot stand I am not going to interact with him anymore. I'll let my boss know tomorrow. |
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#94
We went away for 4 days got a pet sitter the cats are acting like we left them stranded and destitute and have been very vocal and extremely clingy. But they get go on adventures and still expect dinner to be served.
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Magnate
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#95
Went to a really lovely work party last night—amazing catered food at one of the attending’s houses, and we all sang carols together!
Only trouble is that I woke up at 2am and can’t seem to get back to sleep. Fortunately I’m on vacation this week so I can just take a bath and enjoy the quiet instead of being terrified of how exhausted I’m going to be tomorrow. |
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#96
Nothing like 'trying something new' when it comes to yoga. I got halfway through, and then various limbs just said 'Nope.'
Back to my normal practice, I think. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Poohbah
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#97
I woke up at 3am and couldn’t go back to sleepS give me strength to get through this day. At least it’s my short one-only 8.5 hours today.
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#98
Oh man, Couch. The tree is horribly tilted. It makes me laugh and cringe when I walk into the room.
That's probably a good thing, that the tree makes me laugh. It'll be an imperfect Christmas: The Year the Tree Was Crooked. It'll look better once the lights and decorations are on, right? __________________ Since you cannot do good to all, you are to pay special attention to those who, by accidents of time, or place, or circumstance, are brought into closer connection with you. (St. Augustine) |
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#99
Right, WFS. I'm glad it makes you laugh for now, though.
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#100
Worked OK for Charlie Brown!
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