[Omers]

So, it is finally T day! I have so much to try and cram into an hour and I know it won’t all fit. T asked me to teach him a game so we will sit on the floor... which means I am going to go way far outside of my comfort zone and ask for things and trust T when he said the rules/boundaries are the same on the floor as they are on the couch. We have sat on the floor a lot before and I was comfortable with it but now my understanding of the boundaries has changed (I can be closer to T than what I thought was OK) so now it is all scary again. I need us to talk about self care... mine and his, the things with H and H’s inability to support me, my depression getting a lot worse, my self image... and... I need to talk about what I need from the extra long session we have coming up. Anybody got a time machine or a really strong remote with a pause button? I need 1-2pm Eastern time to last about 3 hrs today to get this all out! Last session I managed to empty two boxes of tissues (T blamed it on cold season)... we might be up for a new record today... oh, and I can’t find any of the clothes I set aside especially for T day so I am going to feel funny.
Pocket riders welcome... even if you just want to tag along to “see” if all the crazy stuff I say about my T is real. LOL.

[Quietmind 2]

I'll pocket ride!

[LonesomeTonight]

Hope it goes well, Omers! (I'd hop in, but will be at Dr. T during part of that time!)

[velcro003]

I hope your session went okay, Omers.

[Omers]

T was a little off at the beginning of sessionand I teased him about it. He settled in and told me what was up once we sat down (on the couch, he forgot about the game). He wanted to try some different things so I asked if he was going to be demanding like that if we could start with a hug as it had been a hard week. He said yes and as soon as I was safe in his arms I started sobbing. Poor guy, for a T he can really be thrown for a loop when a woman starts sobbing in his office. I got more of what I needed than I thought I would, his change in our rituals helped with that. He complained that our session was too short.
Most of the session was spent with him validating my grief and my grief process, letting me know grief sucks but it is part of healing, then asking what I needed from him. He held me, offered sympathy and understanding and was quick to offer a tissue when the need came up.

[LonesomeTonight]

Hugs, Omers, sounds like you got what you needed today.

[Taylor27]

Hugs Omers sounds like you had a session that provided what you needed. Hugs

[Lemoncake]

I'm glad T was able to be there for you.