[Omers]

So, I am still all messed up. It started some time last week. If I work really hard starting at the couch in the waiting area I can walk myself through having been to see T Monday but it doesn’t feel like I was there. I don’t usually have to work so hard to remember sessions. T doesn’t feel like T anymore. I can’t grasp him being nurturing or compassionate, all I can imagine is someone very clinical but I know I know better. H says I am a totally different person the last week and a half and he really likes it. I emailed T and let him know what was going on. T wrote back and confirmed I was physically in session Monday but I was disassociating a lot. T has to me he is still there and his is still the same person. He wants me to keep doing my self care which I am doing but it doesn’t seem to be doing anything. T said I can put what ever is scaring me into a container and he and I can open it when I feel safe but I don’t know what has me so upset. I don’t recall triggering and a week and a half would be long for a trigger wouldn’t it? None of this makes any sense to me.
I know I usually have trouble eating and I am eating everything in sight today. H says I am all bubbly and happy but what I notice is feeling foggy and having a bad temper.
I wish I knew what was going on.

[Out There]

I think this is a common feeling at the moment ( myself included ). It's like we just have to deal with our stuff and heal now , both on an individual and a collective level , and it can feel a bit overwhelming. Just take it one day at a time in baby steps. Hugs , I know it's difficult.

[Amyjay]

Just…. grounding skills grounding skills grounding skills. When you're triggered and dissociative the only ways out are time (who knows how long) and grounding skills. That's all you need to do. Keep doing grounding skills until they work. They will, eventually.

[Fuzzybear]