What's wrong with my psychologist?

Thanks for the support! By the way, any recommendations if I should tell my new psychiatrist and therapist that I almost did you know what on the bridge? I’m afraid they’ll banned me for life as well if I tell them, But that would be hiding important trauma from them which seems counterproductive to therapy.

I've always been asked upon intake about previous suicide attempts or history of suicidal thoughts/actions. I've found it has been best just to be honest and upfront about it.

That's a tough one. Personally, I'd rather know sooner rather than later if somebody isn't up to the job. If you do tell them, I would be careful to frame it as something you regret (assuming that's true). Express a desire to work with them to figure out a safer, more effective way to communicate. It might be that you have trouble even knowing what you want, need, or feel sometimes and that makes it difficult to convey your pain. Perhaps it's just hard to explain why you feel so bad sometimes because you don't know why, and the only way you've come up with to convey that you're not ok and the intensity of your pain is to express suicidal ideation. Those are just ideas, they may or may not be true for you and if they are true, I doubt it's a conscious process.

You also need to recognize what a huge issue this fear of abandonment is for you since it almost drove you to attempt suicide. That's got to be a really painful way of existing, where not having a particular person in your life anymore becomes a life threatening situation. Is your new therapist experienced in working with BPD?