ArtieTheSequal

I'm such a dingbat. One minute I'm glad we aren't meeting this week, and in the next minute I wish we were. Why is it so hard to just ****ing know what I want?!

velcro003

Hey T, I think you'll be quite surprised to hear I read the book you suggested AND took notes!

Elio

I hope you don't mind my response... I would (and my T would) say it's because you want both. A part of you wants to meet and a different part doesn't. They are both valid. It's how you get them to work together to make decisions that is more important. How do you get to honoring both of them and both of their wants. Why does the one that wants to meet... want to meet; what does it want, what is it hoping for, what is it missing, how would it feel if you waited to meet, can you comfort it for not getting what it wanted? And the one that doesn't want to meet - why doesn't it want to see your T, what would it mean to it if you did see your T, is it running from something or would rather spend your time in something of more value to it? How could it find other time to do the other things if you were to meet? Things like that.

ArtieTheSequal

This is good stuff Elio, thank you. Getting the parts to work together - ah that is the crux isn't it? I will ponder on this.

ArtieTheSequal

What I really need, L, more than anything, is to learn how to But will I tell you any of this? Probably not.

KLL85

Thank you for your sensitive, validating and compassionate reaction in the session today when I plucked up the courage to talk about my suicidal feelings. I can tell you are trying so hard to build trust with me and ensure that I feel safe. I’ve never had a T that has responded to me with so much kindness like you did today. It can be hard for me to believe you are being genuine as I cannot understand at all why you would ever want to be kind to me, but today really helped me feel less alone. You were completely open to discussing everything relating to my suicidal thoughts with no judgement and no instant panic making you feel the need to contact medical services which terrifies me so much after the previous traumatic experiences I’ve had.
Vulnerability is so hard for me and it felt like such a risk to go in to this stuff with you but you recognised that and I couldn’t have asked for you to have responded any better, so thank you.

Mountaindewed

I’m hoping you are nice. And can help me with my dysphoria. Basically I can still feel my chest. But when I lift up my shirt I just see the scars. But it’s really been frustrating. I want to go back to my surgeon but then I see that everything is ok. My mom said it’s phantom limb type stuff. But it’s been almost 5 months. How long does that stuff go on?

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“We did it Joe.”

Club 46.

LonesomeTonight

Dear T,
Well, now I'm thinking about that comment you made about a sort of "reverse success" in my school/career trajectory and feeling depressed about that...not so much because you said it, but because it's true. Maybe you can help me get it moving in the right direction again?

Love,
LT

ArtieTheSequal

Not gonna call you. Nope, not gonna do it.

comrademoomoo

Six days left of your stupid break. You must be missing me terribly.