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My right shoulder is kinda a mess and I really need to go get it checked out. It was a minor annoyance for many months after my fall and subsequent appendix surgery a year and a half ago, but the past month or so it's been hurting a LOT. I think it's because I'm on my laptop so much working on school. My computer/mouse placement is not ideal for lots of use. I so need a desk instead of the coffee table in front of the couch!! Last night I must have rolled over on it wrong or something, I woke up and yelled in pain cuz it felt like somebody stuck a hot poker in it. I just tried to breathe through it, the worst of it subsided and I went back to sleep. Strange thing is today, it hasn't bothered me even a little bit!! So weird. We have class tomorrow night, but then not Wednesday plus I'm off work after tomorrow til Sunday, so I'm going to rest it a lot and try not to use my laptop much. If after that it's still hurting I'll go to the dr and let them send me for an xray or whatever they do.

I know! I recently ordered the novel a Hitchcock episode was based on - SO MUCH BETTER than the show. Finally - i think it was my 3rd such order.

Eta - have i told you about switching your mouse to your left side? Just start using your left middle finger, and you hardly hafta retrain your brain at all. My right pointer finger is completely shot. My "driving finger" however is very strong!

It will take me years to read all the books I have on my phone and tablet haha

Can i have a logic check here please. My use of gas hasnt changed ober the past year and i have started washing in cold water but my gas bottles are running out quicker. This last one lasted 2 months when the bottles i had for the same period last year lasted 3-4 months. I dont have very good sense of smell so cant tell if there is leak that way so i am suspecting a slow leak some where. Is this a logical conclusion? Because the maintenance line guy hang up on me after coming to the conclusion that i was sating there was leak "based on the fact that [I] was using gas" but he never let get to the part where i explain that i wasnt actually using the gas more i was using it less.

I am so angry now i think that people think i am stupid because i panic on th ephone and cant think clearly and cant find the words i want

I'm sorry, BCM. They don't happen to have a way to report an issue on like a webform or something do they?

So there is nothing wromg with my logic? It makes sense that there might be a slow leak?
I cant put a web form in s the page that has my rental nimber on the rental agrreement is missing. I would hve to ring and get it.

Ive heard of people not getting full tanks here.

I know that happens and the properties of gas when it is hot and when it cools blah blah but this is a consistent thing of getting less and less gas. I think i might start recording the times of evrrything.

About to have a pre-work session in my car. I hate doing these but it’s the only way to fit in therapy when I’m on this crazy schedule. I’m especially nervous about it because last session was so intense, and I feel like we need to keep talking about the intense subject but I don’t want to get myself all riled up and messy and then have to be a doctor 10 minutes later.

Ugh.

And very yes.


I mean, obviously for me it's not being a doctor...but that resonates. I hope you're able to come out of the session mostly in one piece.

I don't want to say I'm sure there's a leak, since I don't have that much experience with gas. But if you're sure you're using less and the bottles empty out quicker, either they aren't full or there's a leak. I'd err on the side of caution and open up some windows, call somebody who knows what to do or get new bottles and the pipes checked as soon as possible... maybe from a different supplier, if that's possible. (Of course my physicist brain is now telling me how one could locate the leak, but that's most probably not a good idea to try at home)

Managed to get my Christmas cards written out to be mailed over the weekend. (50 of them--more than usual because I am mailing the ones to my Church family instead of passing them out because obviously I'm not seeing them.) Then I ghost wrote my parent's Christmas letter. I always do because my Mom has memory issues and my Dad doesn't write well. Then I addressed my Mom's envelopes so she could just fill out the cards, so she got hers done too. I even got a few (10) presents wrapped. It was a very productive weekend. I need to wrap more presents but I want to leave room under the tree for the kitties to lay since they have really been enjoying that.

Another thought with the leak and smelling it is, I know in the US, they add some sort of foul smell to natural gas so that we can sense if there's a leak. But I'm not sure if they do that in your country (Australia?). And natural gas doesn't have a detectable odor on its own (or propane or whatever it is that you're using--maybe propane is natural gas...we have oil heat, so not sure!)

But I'd get someone to check it out to be safe and maybe get a carbon monoxide detector as well.

Hope it went OK and that work is going well.


I can relate in some ways in that, especially now that I'm having sessions from home, it's like i have to sometimes go immediately from session to being "on" as a mother and wife. Like today, my session just ended and in a half hour, we're having a conference (online) with my daughter's teacher. Today's session was a bit emotional in the beginning, talking about my aunt who's in the hospital (not COVID), but if it had been one where, say, I'd had a conflict with T or talked about some really emotional stuff from my past, it would be difficult to wipe away the tears and act "normal" during the conference.

It was easier pre-COVID when I had sessions in person, then could go out someplace for a bit afterward, or even just sit in my car for a half hour in the therapist's parking lot and cry and/or message with friends.

One of the worst therapy-related things like that for me wasn't even right after a session, but the morning after I found out that ex-MC's wife had died. I'd been really emotional and had lots to drink that night, didn't get much sleep, then we had an in-person IEP meeting for my daughter. they make me really anxious anyway--and it's a bunch of us sitting around a table in a brightly lit, warm room, so I feel on display. I started crying and had a panic attack during the meeting and had to step out for a bit. I worried about what the teachers/specialists thought of me (I imagined the school psychologist was understanding!) H gave some vague explanation about me finding out some bad news the night before, but it was a really difficult meeting.

i thought about that for half a second but then realized i don't want to risk messing up my other shoulder too . i may experiment once i move my computer out into the dining room/kitchen area.

My shoulder woke me up again at 2 am. Ugh. I need to figure out how not to roll over on my left side, it seems like if my arm hangs across my body when i'm on my left side that's what kills my shoulder.

I hate the part of a relationship where I start falling in love.

Especially since I was hoping I wasn’t capable of that anymore.

ETA: At first I thought maybe I just wanted to go SIM card shopping, but no, that wasn’t it.

Maybe try one of those long body pillows to prevent it?

Good idea, that just might work if I put my arm over it and it would be big enough it would stay put. I used to have one but I think I got rid of it a long time ago. I'm going to go look on amazon. Thanks!