Couch 223: Jan 4: Darn Tootin'!

Maybe the generic form would be easier than the brand name to get a hold of? Maybe ask pdoc to send another prescription for that instead?

I'm puzzled as to how CVS can't check with other CVS pharmacies in the area to see if they have it. I mean, this was years ago, but I know at one point they didn't have a prescription available at...now I forget which pharmacy--maybe Harris Teeter? (grocery store chain, think they're only on East Coast). But they told me another location had it. I may have had the option to go to that location or have it transferred But they found a way to get it to me.

I ended up checking in with Dr. T to make sure his COVID vaccination went OK today. He replied pretty quickly to say it had gone well and thanked me for checking. Which made me feel better.

My friend joked that he should dress as a zombie for Monday's session to mess with me. I was tempted to include that in my email reply, as I think he'd be amused by it. But figure will share Monday.

According to the pharmacist it's because of the class of medication. It doesn't make sense to me but I'm not in the business.

There is no generic for it unfortunately.

I called Takeda the manufacturer of Vyvanse to see if there is some sort of shortage. I got passed around a lot and was basically told, well not that I'M aware of. Okay. So they said it could be the postal service being slow or something like that. Seems ridiculous.

I called the pharmacy to see if they had gotten it in like they told me to do yesterday and the pharmacist was going on about how she can't get ahold of my doctor (he sent the prescription so I don't know why she wants to talk to him) and that they ordered it and they don't have it but I can't get it filled now anyway because I got 7 pills from Costco so call back in 7 days and see if they got it. And she has 10 of the 30 mgs (I take 60 mgs) and she can always give me those ones but there's another patient that takes it too so she can't be sure that they will be there in 7 days. I'm like OMG! So done. She kept saying, "I already explained it to you." THAT was getting on my nerves. She still has not explained it to my satisfaction!


I've decided I'm not going to take it this weekend. I'm going to try to conserve them for workdays in case I can't get them. But 8 days isn't going to go very far. If she does end up giving me the 30's I'll just take the half dose and have less medicine for more days.


The only other thing I can think to do is to call Costco next week and see if they have more in and can get my prescription filled proper and have my Pdoc send them over a full prescription for 30 days worth.


I'm at my wits end.

Ugh, what a mess, Kit! Costco seems like a better option at this point--I imagine you'd be able to cancel the prescription at CVS and have your pdoc send to Costco.

Yeah, I might try that next week. I don't know. I'm done dealing with it until next week. I'm tempted to just cold turkey it and go off the medication if it is going to start being this much of a pain to get. I can't imagine what it is going to do to my motivation and my ability to focus. It's all going to go downhill. Ever just get to the point where you are so fed up you just don't care anymore? Yup, that's where I'm at. I just don't care anymore. I was frustrated and now I'm just like ah well, forget it.

My impression has been that CVS can call around but they won't. My wife is on a Schedule II controlled substance for years, and we had similar hassles with CVS fairly frequently. We switched to a small independent pharmacy (actually a small local chain), and they have been terrific. They will fill whatever they have and give her an IOU for the rest when it comes in. They order things and let us know when it'll be in. They will work directly with the doctor's office when things come up. It's like night and day compared to CVS. They treat us like people rather like an annoyance. So maybe you can find somewhere small and local like that?

Thanks. Yeah my parents go to a what I consider "Mom and Pop" pharmacy and my Dad has had to have them jump through some hoops to get some of my Mom's medications and they seem to come through all the time. Maybe I should go there. Right now I'm just sick and tired of it and can't think straight. So I'll take the weekend off from the stress of it all and then deal with it next week like Monday/Tuesday before I run out of medicine again. This has been such a nightmare. I feel like I'm whining and I'm definitely taking over the couch--sorry guys. It's just SO HARD being your own advocate sometimes. It's like please someone come fix it for me! Thanks everyone for listening to me rant, rave, and whine.

Yes, many years ago I had a similar issue with my thyroid medication. Luckily they too got it all sorted out. It's stressful to be going through that unknown and to try to track down where one might be able to get it.

Home from therapy after running a couple errands afterwards. As I thought I might, I pretty much sobbed through the whole session except near the end when I told her about the story i'm writing with the help of inner teen me. She said the energy in the room got so much lighter when I talked about the story - and it did, I felt it too of course, and was glad to see that I could indeed stop crying. Earlier in the week I was afraid to let myself cry because I thought I might not stop, I had felt so sad. It's been awhile since I cried for most of a session but it was rather refreshing to have done so, after the fact.

also this morning i saw the dr about my shoulder, she had me do a bunch of different movements with my arm and said she suspects rotator cuff, and gave me the orders to get it xrayed and she said she's going to send me for physical therapy. So we'll see how that goes.

i was going to do the "snooze for 30 days" someone on facebook but i can't figure out how anymore. is that no longer an option i wonder?

Great job getting your shoulder looked at! I know it's been bothering you for a while. Actually, a couple people I know (acquaintances--I don't know them very well) have had shoulder surgery recently (weird I thought during the pandemic but maybe it was really bad I don't know!!) but I'm glad you got yours looked at. I hope physical therapy can help you. My sis was going to physical therapy for her hips and back but she ran out of visits or something and now they just send her to pain management which I think is scary because they put her on like percoset or something strong like that!! EEK! I would be afraid to take it. Although when I took Tylenol with Codeine after a surgery I could easily see how people get hooked to that stuff because I felt great for 4 hours then felt crappy for 2 until it was time to take another dose. I got off that stuff as quick as possible because I could easily see myself wanting to take it sooner than prescribed or more frequently than prescribed. I hope physical therapy works for you!!

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Good for you for crying. I'm glad you feel refreshed now. I've only cried once through a session and it was a termination session. I was a mess! I've never cried in therapy otherwise. I always think I must be doing this wrong!


I'm glad you could stop crying too! I know that feeling of gee if I start can I stop? It's kind of petrifying! I think that is why I don't cry much. I sometimes cry at sad movies and sometimes I cry when studying scripture (okay almost every night) but it's not full on crying, its just like a few tears escape. I think in general I am afraid to cry.

I think too many times I was told, "If you're crying, I'll give you something to cry about." So I learned not to. I'm always very proud of people who can let themselves cry because it is a very normal thing to do. I just haven't learned it yet.

I suddenly find myself exhausted! Good thing it is about 25 minutes til going home time. I need to clean my room but it can wait until tomorrow.

Thanks Kit! I hope so too, I'm in no hurry for another surgery after the 2019 one. The pain meds they gave me after were wonderful while they worked, like you said you feel great for 4 hours then crappy for 2 until you can take it again. After my surgery I pretty much slept in 4 hour chunks. Anyways with my shoulder she told me to take ibuprofen for it, but not every day. I'm not taking anything for it right now because I've learned how not to use my arm, and how to sleep to prevent the worst of the pain. That might change once I start physical therapy but I have ice packs and a heating pad so will try to muddle through with those!

I think that was the advice in the parenting book by Al Capone. I was raised on that too! My crying signals are at least as messed up as my eating/full signals. I think i last spontaneously cried at my goddaughters wedding, over 20 years ago. It felt like a different person inside me was crying.

It took me a moment to remember who Al Capone was....and then I was like LOL!

i typed up a big long response to this and my stupid laptop jumped me out of it for some reason and I lost the whole thing! silly computer.

Anyway i was told that all the time growing up too. Yet, I never learned how NOT to cry, so I just got into more trouble for continuing to cry.

L is very good at just acting like I'm not crying. Except to hand over a box of tissues if there aren't any near the couch. Today there was a full box in front of the couch so I was all set. I felt like a big fat loser sitting there bawling today, I really did, I told her I felt so broken. I think I said that just because I needed to hear her say "Artie, you are not broken." She did not disappoint.

Today's sessions was a perfect example of why I will probably always be in therapy. I need that space where I can just cry and have it just be what it is. I have that no where else.

Artie, you are not broken. And I don't think of you as a loser because you cried. You're kind of my hero! I WISH I could cry like that. Full abandon. You're awesome!