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stopdog · Mar 08, 2021 at 08:21 PM

I have an apple watch which I really like but I also keep my fitbit one in my pocket. Apple is harder to satisfy on movement - Fitbit is more generous

atisketatasket · Mar 08, 2021 at 08:26 PM

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I have an apple watch which I really like but I also keep my fitbit one in my pocket. Apple is harder to satisfy on movement - Fitbit is more generous

That’s actually a big reason I wanted the Apple Watch, I didn’t believe Fitbit’s stats. After a day, I do believe Apple’s.

stopdog · Mar 08, 2021 at 08:46 PM

I agree that apple's can be more accurate in some areas -but not necessarily for others. To me, it is not as good at stationary exercise as it is at outside sort - so if I am riding my indoor bike using the peloton app or walking on the treadmill - it is not as accurate as other methods. The fitbit just makes me happy

ArtieTheSequal · Mar 08, 2021 at 09:20 PM

Happy is good!

ArtieTheSequal · Mar 08, 2021 at 09:36 PM

Oh poo! I forgot to go for a walk today. It's already dark outside so I'm gonna go jump on the treadmill!

LonesomeTonight · Mar 08, 2021 at 09:51 PM

I've tried both Fitbit and Garmin. I found Garmin to be very inaccurate for things like stairs (we have tons of stairs in our house) and particularly sleep. It would say that I'd slept soundly for 8 hours, which was completely inaccurate. Fitbit (Charge 3) has seemed much more accurate for stairs, steps, and sleep. Though my H finds Garmin is good for running, as it shows certain stats that I don't think Fitbit does. Haven't tried Apple Watch. Which is somewhat surprising, as I sit here typing on my Macbook Pro with my iPhone next to me...

stopdog · 11:25 PM

I am trying a new brand of sneakers. My feet look odd in them but they are all the rage brand wise on a lot of running and walking sites. I have worn the same brand and same style daily for about 50 years but they are getting harder to find so I thought I would branch out. I hate breaking in new shoes

atisketatasket · Mar 08, 2021 at 11:27 PM

What brand? I usually wear New Balance.

stopdog · Mar 09, 2021 at 12:41 AM

Altras now and I have a pair of Hokas coming. New balance and Nike have never fit me well.

Lemoncake · 01:30 AM

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Lemoncake · Mar 09, 2021 at 05:15 AM

I emailed the other therapist I saw before in 2019 during my rupture with R, then tried to recall the email in outlook but sometimes it still does go through. It doesn't make sense to pay someone £40 for 50 mins to hear me cry about how much i'm struggling. I feel like I failed. Stupidly even considered seeing a celeb T who charges £200 for a 2.5h session.

I just feel so bad and feel like no one can really help me.

LonesomeTonight · Mar 09, 2021 at 07:48 AM

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I emailed the other therapist I saw before in 2019 during my rupture with R, then tried to recall the email in outlook but sometimes it still does go through. It doesn't make sense to pay someone £40 for 50 mins to hear me cry about how much i'm struggling. I feel like I failed. Stupidly even considered seeing a celeb T who charges £200 for a 2.5h session.

I just feel so bad and feel like no one can really help me.

Lemon, I think it can be really helpful to have a T listen to you, empathize, and validate you when you're crying. It certainly does for me, at least. Like yesterday, I did a lot of crying in session, and Dr. T being there and accepting/validating things I said and the tears, it helped. It felt healing.

ArtieTheSequal · Mar 09, 2021 at 08:00 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I emailed the other therapist I saw before in 2019 during my rupture with R, then tried to recall the email in outlook but sometimes it still does go through. It doesn't make sense to pay someone £40 for 50 mins to hear me cry about how much i'm struggling. I feel like I failed. Stupidly even considered seeing a celeb T who charges £200 for a 2.5h session.

I just feel so bad and feel like no one can really help me.

Big, safe hugs dear sweet Lemon.

You have not failed. I agree with LT in thinking that it can help having someone sit and witness, hold the space, really see me, help me hold the feelings, truly listen and hear me while I cry and sob, even accept and welcome my tears and huge feelings. That's the thing for me, the being seen and heard as I wasn't at home growing up. I am slowly, ever so slowly, over the past 9+ years, learning how to listen to and hold my Self that way. It is so hard to let ourselves be that vulnerable but it is so worth it. YOU are so worth it. I hope you can find an appointment soon and let yourself cry about how much you're struggling, allow yourself to release some of the pain. I wish I could give you a real hug right now, I really do.

I wish that for you, that you will

SlumberKitty · Mar 09, 2021 at 11:34 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I emailed the other therapist I saw before in 2019 during my rupture with R, then tried to recall the email in outlook but sometimes it still does go through. It doesn't make sense to pay someone £40 for 50 mins to hear me cry about how much i'm struggling. I feel like I failed. Stupidly even considered seeing a celeb T who charges £200 for a 2.5h session.

I just feel so bad and feel like no one can really help me.

Dearest Lemon, I think it does make sense to pay someone to hear you cry about how much you are struggling. Struggles need witnesses. Your pain needs a witness. I'm sorry you feel like you failed. I think you are being harder on yourself than you would be on someone else. I think if you were giving advice here to someone you would absolutely say they did not fail and maybe to call their T. It's okay to seek help. It's okay to not be okay. It's okay to have someone witness your not okayness.

Hugs to you dear sweet Lemon. Kit

SlumberKitty · Mar 09, 2021 at 11:36 AM

Still struggling today. I didn't reach out to T yesterday but I am thinking of reaching out to T today. Just to let her know about the thoughts. And to let her know that things aren't going well. I know she can't do anything about it but she can hear me. I think I need to be heard. After my board meeting at work, I'll text T.

atisketatasket · Mar 09, 2021 at 11:45 AM

Got a long walk in this morning by going to an ATM to get Info's cash. Planning to pick up a receipt book on the way there.

Feel like a ****** person for doing this, but I've decided to embrace that.

SlumberKitty · Mar 09, 2021 at 12:10 PM

Possible trigger:

reached out to T via text since I am still feeling suicidal. Now I just wait for her response. I made it clear I don't have any plans and I have every intention of seeing her on Saturday. She will probably offer to call me or something. IDK. I'm not sure what she can do but at least she knows.

WarmFuzzySocks · Mar 09, 2021 at 12:18 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Got a long walk in this morning by going to an ATM to get Info's cash. Planning to pick up a receipt book on the way there.

Feel like a ****** person for doing this, but I've decided to embrace that.

Or a practical reasonable person who's taking the pressure off both of you to deal with lost checks.

WarmFuzzySocks · Mar 09, 2021 at 12:20 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Possible trigger:

reached out to T via text since I am still feeling suicidal. Now I just wait for her response. I made it clear I don't have any plans and I have every intention of seeing her on Saturday. She will probably offer to call me or something. IDK. I'm not sure what she can do but at least she knows.

Kit, I am inspired by your willingness to reach out for support when you need it.

I am glad you're taking care of you.

WarmFuzzySocks · Mar 09, 2021 at 12:30 PM

Ugh. I couldn't sleep last night. This morning I am sure that no one likes me, I am stupid and I am going to be alone forever. So.

I haven't felt like this for a really long time. I'd reach out to my t to see if she could fit me in sooner but...see above. Plus a good dose of "I should be able to handle this on my own by now."

I think if she said a perfectly reasonable "my schedule is full and I don't have any openings" it would just make it worse, so best leave it.

I can hear our next conversation now...
Me: I thought about calling you.
T: It's okay to ask for help.
Me: Nope. No, really not.
(Obviously we've been here before.)

On the bright okay-to-ask-for-help side, I hired someone to deep clean my house because work-grad school-teens-life means that I actually need help. And just gritting my teeth and toughing it out doesn't get my house cleaner. So, yay me. They're coming tomorrow.

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atisketatasket Child of a lesser god Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Tartarus Posts: 19,145 (SuperPoster!) 8 12.4k hugs given	Mar 09, 2021 at 11:45 AM #276 Got a long walk in this morning by going to an ATM to get Info's cash. Planning to pick up a receipt book on the way there. Feel like a ****** person for doing this, but I've decided to embrace that.