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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
is rediscovering her passion and purpose in life.
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#21
Oh yeah and ha, so much for what I said the other day about how by Tuesday...
i kinda wish we were meeting tomorrow but then again... i really do need to learn to just sit with this stuff. |
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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
is rediscovering her passion and purpose in life.
Member Since: Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,149
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#22
Oh and you know what? You totally need to get a couple of those Moonpod beanbag chair thingies for your office. That'd be awesome.
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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
is rediscovering her passion and purpose in life.
Member Since: Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,149
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#23
Hi, me again, ha ha, I am so proud of myself this morning. I finally took care of something that I've been hiding my head in the sand about for literally YEARS... you are well aware of my money complex... well I guess working on accepting these complexes, these parts of myself, lately has paid off because I decided to just pull up my big girl britches and I finally made the phone call I needed to make to start the ball rolling, to take care of this financial thing!!
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#24
It’s been exactly a year now since we sat in a room together. It’s been windy today, just like it was a year ago. I remember walking across the park to your house and feeling this deep sense of unease and dread, I had no idea at the time it would be the last time I’d see you for so long. Feeling the pain of it today. Miss you.
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Always in This Twilight
LonesomeTonight
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#25
Dear T,
I feel like today's session sort of fit under the "casual Friday" tag, just like your attire. But I think we discussed some important things. It's interesting that you're sensing optimism from me. Though you're right, that I'd gotten stuck in a very living day-to-day place. I hope if I can start feeling better about work and/or creative pursuits it could have the ripple effect we discussed. I appreciate your sharing a bit about yourself in there, too--I wonder if you wish you'd taken a different path at times? You seemed wistful in a way, talking about how your life got delayed by getting a PhD. It's funny, I was going to ask you when you thought you might be seeing clients in person again. But your working from home in your hoodie, it didn't feel like the right time to ask. And I like the version of you that's been here during the pandemic. And thanks for the "take care." Love, LT |
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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
is rediscovering her passion and purpose in life.
Member Since: Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,149
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#26
I just noticed that it's mid-session time right now, if we would've had one today. No wonder I am thinking about you right now.
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#27
I had mixed feelings about old T today. So much has happened since I saw her that I want to share with someone. I’m sure new T will be interested though.
I have to remind myself old T was kinda difficult to deal with. It’s not the video session thing anymore. I did see her twice in person at least. Which she did specifically for me. So I don’t know why I still miss her. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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#28
Wow, T. I know I started the ball rolling, but I can't believe we are there. What to do now? How can I continue?
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LostOnTheTrail
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#29
Trying to write today feels like banging my head against a brick wall. Now is the time to get it out, because I'm tired of there only being one place where it gets heard.
Ethically, of course, it's all over the map. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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#30
I keep thinking I made a mistake.
New T will want to know why I feel so much better and I can tell her some things but other things are difficult. It took me 10 months to tell my last therapist about them and I ended up telling her through email and even then it was very tough talking about it aloud. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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LonesomeTonight
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#31
Dear T,
Seriously two nights in a row with a dream involving both you and your wife? I wasn't intending to talk about it with you, but if you both show up again tonight, maybe I should... Or maybe I need to talk about the part where I wanted to talk to you and you were saying "no, it's late," as the elevator doors were shutting and I was standing there forlornly... Love, LT |
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#32
How do I talk to you about stuff that I couldn’t bring up with old T besides in emails? Even after the emails when I wanted to discuss it I’d have to say to her “it’s awkward.” But she always knew what I was talking about. I don’t know how to even begin to approach you about some of the stuff she knew. But it’s a huge part of how I function everyday.
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#33
Dear T,
I feel almost...relieved that you won't be returning to in-person sessions for a couple months? I think as much as part of me wants them, a big part of me isn't ready. And to know I won't have to wear a mask (and that you won't wear one either) if I get the vaccine helps quite a bit. Because that's a big part of what was concerning me about it. I'd rather see your whole face. And to not have to worry about crying, like if I need to wipe my nose. And...I wonder if there was also a part of me that was sort of worried I'd somehow lead to your infecting your family? So I'd feel a little better if your wife was also vaccinated. Even though I admit that a part of me also sort of feels...I'm not sure what the right word is. Weird? Awkward? If she's the one determining whether you can meet me and other clients in person. Yet I understand it at the same time. I think I also had this fear that you had already started seeing some clients in person but hadn't said anything to me because (a) we're working well online, (b) you know I'm anxious about COVID, and/or (c) my daughter is back in school. So I'm sort of relieved you weren't doing that without telling me (if you were up front with me about it, I'd understand). Love, LT |
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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
is rediscovering her passion and purpose in life.
Member Since: Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
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#34
Hi L. I had a bit of (okay a lot of) anxiety last night and could not fall asleep until like 2am, and I had to get up at 4:15. H was actually telling me to call you today and get an appointment sooner than Friday. I think I got through it though, I asked him to just let me talk myself through it and he did. It was about house stuff. I'll make it until Friday.
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#35
one year ago this was my last in person session before the video sessions started. I’m not thinking too much of old T today. I called new T’s office to give them some payment info and they were so friendly. It makes me feel relieved that this seems like a good place.
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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
is rediscovering her passion and purpose in life.
Member Since: Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,149
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#36
Thank you for texting with me this morning. I am sorry for bothering you, I feel like I should have been able to just sit with all of this until Friday without contacting you. I appreciate that you said "I am here." I guess I just needed to see that. See you Friday.
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#37
I got what that I wanted, but I feel so feel bad.
I wanted you to check in on me and you did email on friday, but it's sent me wobbling today. Almost 6 weeks without you already now and I'm half tempted to message you, but I know that I won't. I'm just sad and feel like I don't have a right to be upset over the small stuff. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." Last edited by Lemoncake; Mar 16, 2021 at 02:02 PM.. |
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#38
So I’m getting a procedure done on my chest in a month-6 weeks and I’m wondering how you will respond when I tell you tomorrow. I can’t tell if you are the concerned type or if you will just be supportive while not showing too much emotion. I do want your attention but not in the way I wanted old T’s attention.
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#39
I feel as though tomorrow's session is going to end up being intense. Help?
__________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
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Location: In the desert
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#40
I am SO looking forward to Friday! I am continuing to tolerate this level of uncomfortable with your brief assistance yesterday via text. Thank you again for that.
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