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Default May 19, 2021 at 03:43 AM
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Last night's appointment was horrible. Initially when you said something you know I struggle with, I was upset. Then when you saw it bothered me you response really made me angry. I suspect you think I totally shut down was because I was triggered. That was only partially true. I was very with you. I didn't say anything about the anger and now I regret it. As always you said to reach out if I needed support between appointments. Not sure about telling you how I feel.

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Default May 19, 2021 at 01:25 PM
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I contacted you. Please respond.

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Default May 19, 2021 at 01:28 PM
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I totally spaced your birthday the other day. I wonder did you notice that you didn't get my usual birthday wishes email? Well, belated happy birthday anyway! I think my forgetting about it is a sign that yes, I should bring up my thoughts about reducing sessions again.
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Default May 19, 2021 at 01:47 PM
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I have no idea what I’m doing.

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Default May 19, 2021 at 02:40 PM
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Your response was very disappointing.

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Default May 20, 2021 at 12:57 AM
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So that went better than expected. Still not sure you fully get the depth of my feelings and it still seems like you don’t really want to explore my past, just focus on the present so I guess we need to have that conversation because I know I won’t heal without processing all the stuff from childhood. It was nice to hear you say that you care, although I’m not sure if I believe you. And when you told me you were so proud of me at the end that seemed so genuine but I’m not sure how I feel about that. I guess it felt weird and.....uncomfortable. Nobody has ever told me they were proud of me.
But next week is the last week for our break so I expect that is going to turn in to a s**t show like it usually does. Please prove me wrong.
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Default May 20, 2021 at 06:42 AM
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Dear T,
I kept wanting to ask you something about our evening session last Wednesday, but was afraid that what you would say in response would ruin my feeling of intense gratitude toward you. And my sense of being truly cared for.

But then I had a realization last night about it. How even if you did feel some of the things I was afraid you felt--like frustration or annoyance at having your night disrupted--that wouldn't mean you don't care or that you're tired of me or anything like that. So, I think now maybe we could talk about it, with me framing it that way toward you, and you maybe just sorta being like "yep!" Or even if you don't say your actual feelings on it. Because I think it suggests some sort of progress that I figured this out on my own.

Of course, part of me wants you to be like, "I was glad I could be there for you" or "It was no problem at all," but that's not realistic. Maybe some--even most--T's would say that, but not you!


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Default May 20, 2021 at 06:52 AM
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Hi R,

Thank you for your support today. Seeing you holding the book was a beautiful moment.
It sucks that we haven't been able to share this milestone in the same space.

I really appreciate your willingness to show me that you are unafraid of my feelings (although not unmoved by them - I caught that too.)

I am exhausted after today's session. Thank you for offering an alternative next week.

I have worked hard on being able to express emotion safely with you. The thought of losing it whilst wearing a mask is somehow worse.

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Default May 20, 2021 at 11:53 AM
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Dear T,

I am hoping you are feeling much better now. When I saw you drive by me yesterday it felt good to see you even though it was only for a second. I look forward to your call next week to set up some appointments. I have been having a tough time and it seems like it's getting harder.
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Default May 20, 2021 at 02:46 PM
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Week 15 without you tomorrow. I still think I've grown and changed during this time. Music in particular has been so much more helpful then the other session with the other T G in the past week.

I was listening to this video yesterday about shame that ended with the line "because we deserve to live" and for the first time I actually believed it. Only took me four years to get to this point, but I'm glad.

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Default May 20, 2021 at 04:53 PM
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We really never addressed our issue. I don’t even really feel heard and respected by you.

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Default May 20, 2021 at 05:10 PM
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It’s difficult when I’m stressed and your part of the issue but I really need your support as well right now.

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Default May 20, 2021 at 05:13 PM
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I'm thinking of cancelling Tuesday's session. But I will probably keep it. I just think that I haven't gotten very far with the positive thinking stuff. But maybe you can help me in my failures too!

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Default May 20, 2021 at 09:00 PM
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Hi T. I hope tomorrow's session goes okay since I don't know what we'll talk about :/
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It sounds silly but I’m always hoping your cat will put in a guest appearance. Also, thanks for the extra 20 minutes last week. I don’t like imposing or taking more time than I’m really entitled to, but I appreciated that.
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Default May 21, 2021 at 12:40 PM
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Trying to hang on to that image of you holding the book. That was a glorious moment, which I wish I had the guts to screenshot. That official photo of you is not the same as my image of you...not that I would tell you that.

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Yay!! We are going in-person sooonnn!!!
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Default May 21, 2021 at 03:30 PM
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You didn’t respond to my crisis email from last night and I’m actually kinda glad and I didn’t really care. My doctor told me it was just the vaccine causing issues. I don’t want you to be that kind of person for me that my old therapist was. I don’t want to be needy with you or for you to pay attention to me outside of sessions. We have a different relationship then I did with my old T and that’s ok. I just don’t want you to be strange with me. Also please wear a longer skirt next time. You kept shifting positions like you knew it was too short.

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I think this is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I hate you.
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Default May 21, 2021 at 04:07 PM
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So, we only have a few sessions left. Is it bad that I'm thinking of getting slightly drunk before hand, so that I can make the most of them?

Ps. I was slightly tipsy in our session three days ago. It really helped me to be open with you.
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