Six Years Ago...

On Wednesday, it will be my six year anniversary since ex-T abandoned me... And I still suffer. T says that it was traumatic for me and will always be a part of me, but don't let it define me. She said I'm doing a good job healing from it because it only affects me during anniversaries and randomly throughout the year, but it no longer affects me daily.

Today I have emailed and called the Board of Psychology looking for answers as to why they determined there were no violations. And Wednesday I'm going to send ex-T a letter telling her how it still affects me. I'm not looking for a response from her. I'm not even going to include a return address. I just want her to know I'm still here and her actions still affect me.

Don't worry. Both T and L know I'm doing this. Both are supportive of my choice. They think both inquiring with the board about their decision and sending a letter to ex-T, could be really healing for me.

I do want to thank you all for your support over the years. I don't know if I would have survived without it. Least not as well. I really appreciate all of you.

Hugs, Scarlet...

Hugs~

It's been 25 years since I lost my therapist of 6 years (not his fault, nor mine)- I am still affected my it, and suspect I always will be. Losing a T without proper closure can be seriously damaging.

I'm so glad you find being here helpful.

Well, I got a reply back from the board already. My case was closed and they no longer have any information except it was reviewed by an "expert" and there were no violations. Well, at least I know that's a dead end.

I am so sorry about everything that happened to you including their response today. I still really hurt from the damage that 2 providers did. It does more than suck.

Again, I am sorry.

Hugs Scarlet, im so sorry you got that response from the board. I too have been hurt by two therapist too.

I am so, so sorry. I do understand how traumatic it feels. My ex t abandoned me 13 years ago. I still have no idea what I did wrong. I had nightmares for many years, and even now I still have bad dreams about it some times. it has affected my relationship with my new therapist, who is nothing like ex T. It has affected all areas of my life.
It will get better. I promise, it wont always be as bad. It did take me about 11 yeaes to really start getting over it, but it is better now.
It used to be a big heartache. Now it is more like a small tender ache in my heart.

I'm also sorry for everyone who has been hurt by a therapist. It happened to me, too, & that kind of injury naturally injures our trust in the possibility of future therapists. Fortunately for me, I also have memories of wonderful therapists. Hugs to everyone.