[Gasplessy]

I made a lot of mistakes, been a mad and lazy clown in this Life, til i reached a point when i knew it was over

Talking with my therapist is looking for atonement knowing there is no way to handle this crap anymore

Again, many people fights and try to resist in fix

But i've been an evil black hole of inertia for almost ten years, lost everyone and grief too late

She's trying to help me emotionally, but i'm literally not a Human anymore, I've lost and trashed

It is fascinating than she still tries

Sorry for the content.

[*Beth*]

No "sorries." I understand, I believe. It is GREAT that you're seeing your therapist.

[Gasplessy]

I'm in a phase in my life where I cannot change things anymore
She tries to apply emdr but truth is that i cannot see the light because i see no way to act
i'm mostly negative and don't cooperate
She cannot do much and this makes me feel uncomfortable because she's a human, too and it's frustrating for me
I literally lost every friend

I cannot Believe what I've done in this life, it's such a nightmare