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LonesomeTonight · Apr 07, 2021 at 06:41 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

Of course. This is what I ended up with. It's on a smallish piece of plywood like 12" by 4.5" (so not very big) that I saved out of some delivery or other. I always save stuff like that to paint on since I started this little hobby. I call it "Spring" and it kinda makes me happy. Now I want to write a poem to go along with it.

eta: it's a little bit funny actually. I started by painting the entire piece of wood solid black. And then, this happened.

That's really pretty! Also, maybe you knew this, but painting it black first can make colors pop more, or at least appear differently (one of the Paint Nites I did had us do that--I need to get back into those...).

LonesomeTonight · Apr 07, 2021 at 06:42 AM

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Originally Posted by Quietmind 2

Yup, saw pdoc. Long day due to a bunch of stuff. Basically another patient thought I was staring at him and challenged me. So I was really bleeping anxious.

Then there was a medical student on zoom. I gave consent as I hoped my appointment would help 1 would-be doctor not being a skeptic and being versed with complex trauma would be great. Tons of pdocs here are horribly not trauma sensitive at all.

Pdoc was quite validating, which helped. She thankfully isn't a OSDD/DID-skeptic!

Had to go back in at a later point because pdoc and I both forgot my Depo-Provera shot haha. Fortunately I remembered. Then a whole bunch of ridiculous mix ups happened. Someone didn't verify me with 2 identifiers and reeled off appointment dates for someone else! Then the injection folks missed me and I basically was the last patient of their day due to it.

Wow, that is a long day! I'm glad pdoc was validating.

ArtieTheSequal · Apr 07, 2021 at 07:46 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

That's really pretty! Also, maybe you knew this, but painting it black first can make colors pop more, or at least appear differently (one of the Paint Nites I did had us do that--I need to get back into those...).

Thanks! And no, I didn't know that!

Quietmind 2 · Apr 07, 2021 at 09:14 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Wow, that is a long day! I'm glad pdoc was validating.

Definitely glad.

Lemoncake · Apr 07, 2021 at 11:30 AM

Artie I also really liked the painting and I'm not just saying that!

Kit- Yay I'm glad you've got such an amazing team to work for.

LostOnTheTrail · Apr 07, 2021 at 11:39 AM

I am a member of so many support groups. When it comes to asking for support, I don't know where to post. I'm feeling steamrollered already, and I haven't even got to the difficult bit yet.

There will not be any answers concerning my ailing relative for a little while, so it feels mildly pointless to bring that into session. Tomorrow ends one series of grief anniversaries, and the 15th marks the anniversary of the discovery of the deception.

I have no frigging idea where to start...

LonesomeTonight · Apr 07, 2021 at 12:40 PM

Feel free to post here, Lost. My T once referred to these forums as a big support group.

LonesomeTonight · Apr 07, 2021 at 12:42 PM

Ugh, I'm really unsure how to deal with some things Dr. T said today... I understand his point, but... Maybe I should have just listened to the voice in my head that questioned whether I should bring this up or not...

He said at the end that he wondered if this would be another "conversation grenade," and I worry that it will be.

LostOnTheTrail · Apr 07, 2021 at 12:45 PM

Sorry to hear that, LT. I hope you can figure it out. Even if it is a 'conversation grenade', I hope you can work through it.

stopdog · Apr 07, 2021 at 12:58 PM

I am fairly loose on cleaning stuff. I don't usually wash my cast iron even with water (there are a few rare exceptions) - I scrub with salt and reheat with oil. But every time cleaning cast iron comes up on some of my cooking forums - it is the biggest xxxx show. I am most amused by the hyper clean people who insist on soap - the soap insisters get all unhinged at everyone else - even though they are not eating from those skillets.

ArtieTheSequal · Apr 07, 2021 at 01:11 PM

I'm eating lunch and all 3 cats are laying around me on the couch and table. They all want my sammich haha

LonesomeTonight · Apr 07, 2021 at 01:20 PM

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Originally Posted by LostOnTheTrail

Sorry to hear that, LT. I hope you can figure it out. Even if it is a 'conversation grenade', I hope you can work through it.

Thanks, Lost. I think it just sort of makes me wonder if I should keep seeing this T. We've worked through lots of things. And he's been great through the pandemic. But it also gets tiring to have to deal with the same issues again and again...

LonesomeTonight · Apr 07, 2021 at 01:22 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I am fairly loose on cleaning stuff. I don't usually wash my cast iron even with water (there are a few rare exceptions) - I scrub with salt and reheat with oil. But every time cleaning cast iron comes up on some of my cooking forums - it is the biggest xxxx show. I am most amused by the hyper clean people who insist on soap - the soap insisters get all unhinged at everyone else - even though they are not eating from those skillets.

I have trouble dealing with cast iron because of the fact that you aren't supposed to use soap on it. The OCD part of me struggles with that. Plus, they're really heavy!

Lemoncake · Apr 07, 2021 at 02:04 PM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Ugh, I'm really unsure how to deal with some things Dr. T said today... I understand his point, but... Maybe I should have just listened to the voice in my head that questioned whether I should bring this up or not...

Thanks, Lost. I think it just sort of makes me wonder if I should keep seeing this T. We've worked through lots of things. And he's been great through the pandemic. But it also gets tiring to have to deal with the same issues again and again...

He said at the end that he wondered if this would be another "conversation grenade," and I worry that it will be.

I personally don't think you should have to censor yourself in therapy.

Why not see another T for one or two sessions?

LonesomeTonight · Apr 07, 2021 at 02:17 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I personally don't think you should have to censor yourself in therapy.

Why not see another T for one or two sessions?

Thanks, Lemon. I did send Dr. T an email. I was looking at T listings last night in anticipation of this. There were a couple I contacted before who seemed like possibilities, though no idea if they'd have availability now. And I feel bad that one I contacted and had a 15-minute consult with, then said I might be interested, then never said anything else. This was in October maybe? Or August? Last mini-rupture.

Lemoncake · 03:40 PM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Thanks, Lemon. I did send Dr. T an email. I was looking at T listings last night in anticipation of this. There were a couple I contacted before who seemed like possibilities, though no idea if they'd have availability now. And I feel bad that one I contacted and had a 15-minute consult with, then said I might be interested, then never said anything else. This was in October maybe? Or August? Last mini-rupture.

Hope you can message and ask if they have availability at the moment.

I've also used the "I'll email you" line but didn't. It was easier that way. I'd also feel guilty, but there's no obligation to continue and they could charge if they really wanted too and offer no free mins.

I might wobble every now and then, but I genuinely do wish that I had actually left much sooner and not kept going back again and again, believing that we could work it out. I stayed because I was super attached and dependent on him. Now nine weeks out of therapy it feels liberating taking back that control and no longer having to deal with "the relationship" drama, of feeling like he didn't really understand it and making me feel like I was crazy for reacting the way I did. You're much stronger then you think you are- you don't knowt until you look back.

Lemoncake · Apr 07, 2021 at 02:49 PM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Feel free to post here, Lost. My T once referred to these forums as a big support group.

daisydid · Apr 07, 2021 at 02:49 PM

I’m surprised that there are people in the world who would use soap in their cast iron pan. That defeats the whole purpose of the pan.

Good energy to those of you who are struggling at the moment. I’m in the boat as well. Maybe we can make tshirts

LonesomeTonight · Apr 07, 2021 at 02:53 PM

Lemon, I worry that if there was a T I said I'd contact but then didn't, that they'd hold it against me. But I'd like to think they wouldn't. Because I'm sure that's really common among potential clients.

ArtieTheSequal · Apr 07, 2021 at 04:04 PM

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Originally Posted by daisydid

I’m surprised that there are people in the world who would use soap in their cast iron pan. That defeats the whole purpose of the pan.

Good energy to those of you who are struggling at the moment. I’m in the boat as well. Maybe we can make tshirts

I would wear the tshirt.

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Lemoncake Luna's offical mini me. Member Since May 2017 Location: Cafe Nervosa. Posts: 9,698 (SuperPoster!) 6 10.2k hugs given	Apr 07, 2021 at 11:30 AM #325 Artie I also really liked the painting and I'm not just saying that! Kit- Yay I'm glad you've got such an amazing team to work for. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing."

LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,751 (SuperPoster!) 9 74.9k hugs given	Apr 07, 2021 at 12:40 PM #327 Feel free to post here, Lost. My T once referred to these forums as a big support group.

LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,751 (SuperPoster!) 9 74.9k hugs given	Apr 07, 2021 at 12:42 PM #328 Ugh, I'm really unsure how to deal with some things Dr. T said today... I understand his point, but... Maybe I should have just listened to the voice in my head that questioned whether I should bring this up or not... He said at the end that he wondered if this would be another "conversation grenade," and I worry that it will be.

ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,236 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,766 hugs given	Apr 07, 2021 at 01:11 PM #331 I'm eating lunch and all 3 cats are laying around me on the couch and table. They all want my sammich haha

daisydid Member Member Since Oct 2018 Location: the astral plane Posts: 493 5 375 hugs given	Apr 07, 2021 at 02:49 PM #338 I’m surprised that there are people in the world who would use soap in their cast iron pan. That defeats the whole purpose of the pan. Good energy to those of you who are struggling at the moment. I’m in the boat as well. Maybe we can make tshirts

LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,751 (SuperPoster!) 9 74.9k hugs given	Apr 07, 2021 at 02:53 PM #339 Lemon, I worry that if there was a T I said I'd contact but then didn't, that they'd hold it against me. But I'd like to think they wouldn't. Because I'm sure that's really common among potential clients.