Couch 228--The Wellness Couch

Chihiro - glad to hear about the POD. Now i understand why i got a flat after filling a low tire. I think. I just know i never touch them now. I am differently abled when it comes to tires. Im good at windshield wiper fluid though.

I hope your BF's family remains safe.

Chihiro so sorry to hear about your BF family. I hope his parents are okay.

Appointment with Pdoc went okay. He upped the anti-psychotic not surprisingly but it's not going to do anything for the thought stopping. He did say that maybe my thoughts are blocked because I have too much in my head with the hallucinations and delusions. Hmmm. I suppose that is a possibility. I feel like crap for having to increase the second anti-psychotic even though I didn't feel like crap when my doctor increased my BP medication. What is it about mental health stuff that makes me feel like crap. I wouldn't want someone else to feel like crap because their meds had to be adjusted, so why am I doing that to myself? UGH. The pharmacy keeps wanting to give me 90 day supplies of stuff only I don't want 90 days supplies of stuff. Costs too much all at once. And I'm worried they are going to mess up my script for the Vyvanse because I should have one month left under the ones he sent in April and then he sent two more but I bet they will use the new ones and not use the one in April and then they will tell me they don't have a script. He was really confused because I upped my appointment a month so he was like trying to figure out the dates needed for the Vyvanse. It was a telehealth visit of course but I got to see his Lucy on the video. She is his therapy dog. She's a King Charles ? I think that is what he said. She is adorable. She is going to classes for therapy dogs.

On a side note, because I got my Pap Smear done, I am going to get $220 from my Colonial Life peeps. I pay a boat load for Colonial Life insurance and I have multiple coverages. So I was surprised that I am going to get that much money. It's pretty cool. Because it only cost me $30 to get the Pap smear done. So I am coming out ahead! And they were really fast at the claim too. My Colonial Life agent guy said to make sure I file for the mammogram too because I'll get like $200 for that! What the heck?! This is the best news ever!

I'm so angry with my therapist. He said he is going to hold off responding to me for 24h because he doesn't think responding to me is helpful right now. That is some kind of power play. If he had just said he was logging off for today that would have been fine, but 24h thing makes it sound like punishment and it is not okay to make out like it is for my benefit when it is obviously for his. He can respond to me when he likes but don't make out that deliberately withholding is supposed to help me.

We found a couple nice-looking steaks marked way down at the store yesterday, so I'm broiling them right now for dinner. Also making rice a roni and green beans. Yum!

I love rice a roni. There is something about those soft tiny noodles.

Rice a roni, which i am pretty sure is the same as rice a riso over here, tastes like sad.

It’s the San Francisco treat!

I thought you only ate healthy food. Rice a Roni does not qualify.

I liked the cable car in the old commercials

I’m a sucker for Pasta Roni and the Knorr Pasta Sides. I can make basic prepackaged things like these, and basically lived off of them when I lived alone. Tuna Helper as well. Now I want some crappy pasta.

I used to eat the Knorr sides all the time when I lived alone. Sometimes I added some vegetables to them to make it healthier, but often I did not. They would have them on sale really cheap at the Giant near me, so I'd stock up.

Now I want the Stroganoff one...

So I'm kicking myself right now. I have a writers' critique group every other week on Zoom. Normally we do just fiction, since that's what we all write, but I've been going through my old writing this summer and I found seven poems I wrote during my really bad time of 4-5 years ago. And they seemed pretty good to me and maybe I should do something with them. So I submitted them for our next critique session week after next.

Which I am now really regretting. They're very personal poems and I like these women, but still. And it seems a lot of people who write poetry have no idea that their poetry is actually pretty bad, and now I worry these are bad and I will embarrass myself.

Feh. I'll distract myself by sending off my short story to the journal of the day. At least that story's not personal.

The Stroganoff one is my favorite. I had it last week. It's a guilty pleasure though so I try not to indulge too often.

I don’t know that I’ve had Stroganoff. My husband hates when I buy them because they’re so unhealthy, but I may need to make an exception.

It feels like I haven't seen my therapist in ages, but it was yesterday. Not even yesterday morning. It was afternoon. I cried a lot and he ended rather abruptly for a bathroom break, so maybe that's why it feels off right now.

My brother used to make it for us. So its a very strong sense memory.

I was going thru a phase.

My newest phase is barilla ready pasta. NO BOILING NEEDED!!! With a can of calamari and a good shake of garlic powder, im in rotini heaven.

Chihiro, sorry to hear about your BF's family and his worries.

Hugs if wanted, NP.