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#81
Bowlby's work really explained myself to me.
Maternal deprivation leaves you trying to solve a jigsaw puzzle with a) you dont know HOW many pieces missing b) an irregular border so no you dont even have an outline and c) no picture of what its supposed to look like. |
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Had another rupture with L today. It's not as big as this last one, it will probably be worked through rather quickly (if she would listen to me), but I'm just drained.
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Hugs, Scarlet, I'm sorry.
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Update:
The other rupture with L was quickly resolved. I had my session with T today. We talked about 4 main points: *I'm not necessarily idealizing L, but I am idealizing the relationship. She feels that I am realizing how dependent I am on the relationship which could be why the situation is panicking me. * L and I need to separate the "client comment" rupture with the "talking to family" rupture. They are not the same; they are two different things. And I'm combining them into one probably because we haven't addressed the first fully. * We talked about adding to our goodbye ritual things that will talk to the anxiety I feel after session. Not only acknowledging the anxiety, but also giving reassurances to it. * She also suggested that I start connecting with my transitional objects not just at night, but as soon as I get home and again in the evening. Overall I found it helpful. I just hope these twraks and realizations help. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica |
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#87
Goodbye rituals for after session anxiety was a major stepping stone in my work with my last t. It was so effed up at home when i was a kid, i probably still dont have a handle on it. But the rituals were a really solid part of my therapy, and in making me me.
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Yesterday's session was intense, in a good way. We started off talking about the sadness/grief I have been feeling. L gave me a few examples of how people might process grief. One was an example of imagining putting lights up in the scary dark places. Another was finding a safe spot to cry. And the other was finding time to cry during a long drive. I felt even more sad because I don't have a space spot to cry. L is my only safe spot. And I don't have time to cry with her. She asked if I cried at all this last week, and I hadn't. She said (and I agreed) that I'm "emotionally constipated", and desperately needed to cry. So we scheduled a double session, picked a topic/event that was bothering me currently
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About the rupture: L wrote me an email last week that included a detailed apology. Her apology finally sunk through to me, and I was able to accept it. Now when she apologizes, I have the urge to stop her and console her. I don't want her to be sorry anymore. I don't even know if we need to process it anymore. I also realized that since the rupture, she's done something to protect me, and it proves to me that she is safe, and will protect our relationship and my safe space. Also, we finally got her birthday card to me! It was undeliverable and got sent back to her. She gave it to me yesterday. I absolutely love it! And I'm glad my sister didn't get it and give it to me on my birthday. Now I get to cherish it all myself! __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica |
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I'm glad you were able to work through the rupture with L, Scarlet. She does really seem to care about you! I've never done a crying session, I can't even remember the last time I cried, but it is so good that it helped you. HUGS Kit
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That sounds amazing positive. I'm so pleased for you.
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