Grief from loss of therapist

How do you deal with this unique kind if grief? I lost a therapist a few months ago that meant everything in the world to me who promised she would always be there. We had a dual role so I am also grieving that as well and confused at how someone who spent birthdays with me, gave me several expensive gifts, helped redecorate my house, spent countless hours together doing crafts could just leave me in the dust. I have processed this in therapy and I have written her a letter. I just don’t know how to move on without closure (we didn’t have any termination sessions) and live with such intense grief.

How did others who lost therapists all of sudden cope and move on from it?

I lost a therapist, my former T is how I refer to her on here, a few years ago. We had worked together for 10 years. She got sick with MS and had to stop seeing clients for a while. We had a final termination session which I honestly don't remember because I was crying through the whole thing. I cried for days after losing her. And it honestly took about six months for the grief to lift. It still comes back in waves sometimes when I miss her particularly so. We didn't have a dual relationship but we were close. All I can say is allow yourself to cry. Journal. Write on here. Vent. Talk it out. There's no easy answers. Just be kind and gentle with yourself. You might want to look for another T or you might not. Another T might help you process the grief. But it means delving into all those special moments you had with your T. Think about it. And then you can decide if you think that would be helpful. I talked with now ex T about former T a lot and it helped. Just having someone validate the experience. And I talked on here about it. And I cried. And cried. And cried. And I am not a crier. Hope your heart is at peace soon. HUGS Kit