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Writing my way through...
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#741
Oh Kit I'm so sorry all of that is happening. Sending hugs Be gentle with yourself. I agree with Lost it does seem irresponsible of your IOP T to say that you wouldn't get kicked out if you went to the hospital.
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#742
Kit, I would be feeling angry about the whole IOP situation as well. Obviously not knowing what was said to make her think you needed to go to the hospital, it seems like they really mishandled the situation. Also saying that you're making things toxic by asking for a letter seems really hurtful and out of line. Hugs.
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#743
Thanks everyone for the hugs. I really appreciate it.
I have been texting with my case manager from IOP today. He went before the director and plead my case. He said I haven't harmed since the one time at the beginning of program, the ER doctor didn't hold me, and I've come a long way in program and am almost done. I have to sign some sort of safety contract/commitment but they are going to let me back into IOP. My case manager is a miracle worker. I am so thankful for him. I don't know if I want to see the IOP T again but I might not have a choice. At least she is on vacation until Friday of next week. I'm going to have another therapist do check in's with me while she is out. I don't know what that will look like but okay. I'm not thrilled about having to sign a contract. I think it is actually counter productive for the IOP place. They are basically acknowledging that I am a risk to myself and that they are continuing to treat me. I don't see how that could go their way in court but I'll sign the paper anyway, since it will get me back into IOP. My case manager is an angel. At least I've stopped crying. And I got an appointment with my PCP for tomorrow at 2:30 PM. The hospital wanted me to follow up with her. I'm not actually sure what she will be able to do for me but okay. An appointment I have. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#745
Oh Kit, I'm so sorry they put you through all that. I wonder what it was that made them consider you were at a higher risk than usual to insist that you went to the hospital?
Glad to hear that they've let you back into the program though after your case manager's intervention. I hope you can do something nice for yourself to help relax and take your mind off things. Sent from my SM-A526B using Tapatalk __________________ To the world you might be just one person; but to one person you might be the world. |
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#746
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I think it was a combination of things. My affect was off, the therapist said my cognitive functioning was low (I think I was just emotionally shut down because of what she was saying but okay), my depression was high, urges to self harm were high (although that is pretty typical for me--doesn't mean I act on it), and I had some suicidal thoughts but like a 3 on a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being the worst. I also expressed hopelessness and I think that was my downfall. She was like, you have too many risk factors. I need you to go to the hospital. Can I trust you to do it voluntarily? Well I sure as heck wasn't going to be forced to go so I said I would go. But when I talked to the psychiatrist there and told him what was going on he was like let's see how we can get you home safely. So he wasn't very concerned about it. Oh and I was having hallucinations which are also typical for me. But she is a new therapist. She is still working on getting her 3000 hours to get licensed so I think she scares easier than some that have been around the block longer. I really didn't feel that I was that high of a risk for suicide and I told that to the ER doctor and he listened to me. He also talked to my case manager and my parents a couple of times so he felt pretty confident in releasing me with a new medication. Yes, I am very happy for my case manager. I am very displeased with the whole you have to sign a safety commitment contract because I feel like all the stuff on the contract I've already been doing. So I don't know what their problem is. But I signed it so I can get back into IOP. Even though I think it is demeaning and ridiculous. I'm definitely looking for something nice to do for myself. I plan on staying home tonight instead of going to my religious studies and maybe staying home tomorrow night as well. Just to even out the stress. I might take a nice hot shower tonight or tomorrow night IDK when for sure and light a candle and all of that stuff. Use some nice lotions and stuff. I am trying to think of some other nice things I could do for myself. I don't know what yet. I've been through a heck of a lot these past few days so I recognize the need for self care for sure. Thank you! HUGS Kit __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#747
Kit, I'm so glad your case manager was able to intervene on your behalf and get you back into the program.
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#748
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#749
Hugs, Kit. I'm so sorry you had to deal with all that. It sounds like the IOP T overreacted. I've always heard that you need to have a desire, a plan, and an intent to carry it out in order to be hospitalized. If you were only a 3 on feeling that, it seems like the ER pdoc made the right decision to send you home. I'm glad they're letting you stay in the program. I hope you can find a good regular T.
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SK sorry the therapist over-reacted. Sometimes (or often in my opinion) those guys just make life harder for people
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#751
Ahh!!! He/She is SO CUTE.
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#752
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#754
How would you guys react to this situation?
Zoom meeting breaks up. You’re the host. Some people leave, but two stay on because one is inviting the other to an event she has an extra ticket for (no, she’s not inviting you too.). They go on and on checking their schedules. And because you’re the host, you’re stuck leaving the Zoom window open or you’ll cut them off. (Never mind they can also connect on Facebook or text or email.) You turn off your webcam to give them some privacy, but you actually need to stay online, so you stay at the computer. Would you have said something or just waited for them to finish talking? __________________ The secret to eternal youth is arrested development.—Alice Roosevelt Longworth |
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#755
I would have casually mentioned that I have to go but don't want to cut them off and hope they take the hint
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#756
If I was the one who started the meeting, I would have ended it when the meeting was done. A Zoom meeting is not the same as an IRL meeting. They can figure out how to chat amongst themselves some other way. We use a different platform at work (Microsoft Teams) and I've seen plenty of "this meeting has ended" screens. When the meeting is done, end the meeting. I doubt anyone would take it personally.
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#757
New job became too physically difficult but the company is letting me transfer departments at the end of the week. Two shifts to go.
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#758
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#759
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