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#801
I have just been notified that my union's recent ballot about strike action has met the threshold to take strike action. My spirits have lifted considerably. I love a strike. I support the basis of the strike (pensions) but I love time away from work even more. It's like a second Christmas! I hope it isn't called off, I will be heartbroken.
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#802
My T texted just to check in I suppose. It was a little random but it was very nice. I sent her back a longish text. Probably more than she needed to know. I wanted to tell her that although I am struggling I am managing. Did I put it so succinctly? Nope, not at all. So she'll have to read through a paragraph to get to that point.
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#803
I wish I had a union and I was going on strike. But only if I could do that from my bed.
Sometimes I wish I could just avoid dealing with clients. Like have a people person deal with them and I could stick with the software side. Of course, some clients are nice to work with. The ones that are engaged and invested. Had a client angrily accuse me of being a communist last week as his greeting. What a first impression. I guess it does make me feel better about my own communication skills, which I usually feel are somewhat substandard. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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#804
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I dunno. Maybe because it's no fun being a sponge bob crabby pants and I still obviously care way too much about what other people think of me. Otherwise explained using smilies: in the words of L, I'm a romantic, remember? I want life to be a hallmark movie. Ha. |
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#805
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#806
i think it's a leftover survival mechanism from childhood, trying to always be a happy, pleasing person so I could also be invisible.
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#807
My psychiatrist said to pick a small area every day to clean and send her the before and after pictures. This has actually been helpful because my problem is my depression and lack of motivation are greater than my concern that I've mistaken my house for a dumpster. Actually, it would probably be more accurate to say I've launched my own recycling center, with the dumpster area confined to my refrigerator.
My psychiatrist is better than my therapist about her expectations. The therapist helped me some with this problem, but her expectations were a lot higher and she would always try to tack on extra tasks. And when I expressed how overwhelming I found trying to clean everything, she seemed skeptical. I've forgotten where I was going with this. How annoying. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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#808
I'm going to talk to Julieanne Monday next week instead of Friday next week. So a little sooner. It will only be two weeks until I see her (well "see" her via Zoom) instead of almost three weeks.
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#809
My coworker said I looked tired. Hmmm. I don't feel particularly tired. I hope he didn't mean tired as in you look old. Lol.
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#810
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That's just my conclusion from observing my reactions to others and how others react to me, whether I or they are being sincere or insincere. And I feel better when I'm not being insincere. Childhood doesn't really have anything to do with it anymore. What matters is now. So if you want to be crabby and that's more real, then be crabby. The Tao of ATAT. __________________ The secret to eternal youth is arrested development.—Alice Roosevelt Longworth |
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#811
I doubt he meant you look old, SK. Unless he has a history of making catty remarks.
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#812
Susannah, I find cleaning overwhelming. I did manage to change my sheets on Saturday. Even though I myself stayed in my pj's all day and watched Hallmark Movies and Mysteries. This was still a big win because my sheets needed to get washed. I did not however, work on any artwork which was my goal.
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#813
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If I can't throw him a big party, I'll do something else spectacular. I just don't know what yet. I took him (and my Mom) to Disneyland last year and stayed in the Disneyland Hotel, and then in December I took my Dad to the Rams/Seahawks game (go Rams!) so I don't know how to top myself!! __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#814
I find dads are difficult to get presents for. My dad is, anyway. At least now he has a fiancee I can pester to give me ideas.
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#815
Yes, my Dad is difficult to shop for too. Unless he can tell me something specific he wants. Like last year he wanted some sort of tool thing. Like a generator? Kind of. I don't really know what it is that I bought him. He found it online and was like, this is what I want. So I bought it. But I still don't really know what it does. So far this year I got him a Rams cap, a Rams shirt, and a lightweight jacket for Church. All boring stuff. The big thing is supposed to be the party. I just hope Covid cools down for a couple of weeks so we can have the party!
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#816
My dad rarely says what he wants. I don't know why. Well, maybe because when he wants something he doesn't wait around for his birthday, father's day, or Christmas. The last couple of years, I just got him something random. Like he was talking about doing a veggie garden in the spring, so I got him some gardening tools he'll probably never use. Year before that I got him a sous vide thingy because stopdog mentioned hers and it seemed like something he'd like. I give him Amazon Prime every year for his birthday, and I know he uses that, so that's one gift I don't have to think about.
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#817
Yeah, I wish my Dad would keep an Amazon wish list so I could just shop off of that!
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#818
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I was actually talking to my T some today about organizing and reducing clutter. He said he'd probably have trouble working in the room in which we were meeting, based on what he could see, due to all the clutter.. Me: "Oh, this is nothing, compared to the rest of the house." And I said how I knew depression was causing me to struggle with cleaning because it felt like an overwhelming task. I think lower expectations are better with things like this. Just taking some small step is better than nothing at all. The idea of pictures is a good one (though I fear my T would recoil in horror at some of the piles in my living room). Maybe it would help me to try that, too? Or even if I just use the pictures for myself? |
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#819
I'm usually decent at cleaning and organizing. It's hard though when you live with two guys who are too lazy to even put trash in a trash bag...
But lately I've been so tired. I think I might be in a depression. And getting my booster on Friday wiped me out for the weekend. So my house is a huge mess! I start things, and don't finish. I have a half loaded dishwasher, clothes that have been sitting in both the washer and dryer, dog hair all over the floor, and trash piling up in the kitchen. Good thing management hasn't asked to come over... __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica |
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#820
LT, maybe it would help, though he sounds a bit judgy on this topic which would make me worried about his reaction. I'm not sure the pictures would do anything for me on their own since I'm only too aware of how messy things are prior to cleaning them. It's mostly been helpful to me to have some accountability and encouragement. Not that my psychiatrist is going to somehow punish me if I don't follow through. But I'm motivated to do it because the scope is limited enough that I believe I can do it if I choose to (that's not to say it's easy).
I don't know if this is relevant for you, but she gave me an insight that I found helpful. She said I'd lost trust in myself to do certain things, like chores and just generally taking care of myself. And that's so true. I've disappointed myself so often that I have a little voice in my head that responds to thoughts of "I'll do such and such a task at such and such a date/time" with a snide little "No you won't, you know you won't. Just accept it." Not actually a trigger, just a bunch of rambling that I didn't mean to do, but that I might like to look back on at some point.
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