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This definitely opens up attachment wounds. She said that too! I'm sort of trying to control her, I guess. For her answering the question: yes, I want a "yes" or "no" answer. Normally her answer for this topic is a "I don't have a judgment on this subject". It frustrates me and confuses me, but I am learning to accept that answer from her because I get it a lot. Yes! Trust is paramount for me. Honesty is more important than trying to save my feelings. I can't do anything with lies. I know because H is a compulsive liar. I also have first-hand knowledge of how lies can destroy people's lives. I will say this: I do believe in boundaries, limits, and privacy. I do not expect L or anyone else to be completely open with. I've asked L some very personal questions all of which she has answered. But I never asked for details as a sign of respect for her. She knows this. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica |
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#22
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My perfectionism does often get in the way of things. I try so hard to be a "good" client. There's a quote L and I use: __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica |
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I can sit with the anxiety of not knowing her answer so long as we continue to be honest and so long as she figures out her own anxiety. I hope processing what everything means to me will give her relief when ot comes down to answer. I do think this is similar to your situation with Dr. T. I also had the same happen with T. I told T I love her, and she said she can't say it back to me. The most she'll ever say is "take care". With L, I don't think I have a preference to a "yes" or "no". I do think the answer will help me gage where she is at with all of this. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica |
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#24
I just want to also add that I'm not looking for L to forgive me or judge me. I personally believe only God can do that. Like I said in my last reply, I just want to gage where she's at.
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#25
Phone call went extremely well. I think L and I are on the same page. A ton was clarified in the 40mins. She still doesn't have an answer, but through me processing the secret and related topics, plus her doing some thinking on her own, she feels she might be able to give me a yes or no answer and will probably be willing to tell me. A lot of unknowns, but I'm okay with that. I told her to just let me be free to feel my own emotions just like I need to let her be free to feeling hers.
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#26
Glad to her that the call went well, Scarlet!
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#27
Sitting with uncomfortable feelings or with questions is something that will come. You have an urgency to know answers NOW when hopefully in time you can sit with a curiosity about questions rather than a fear of them and the variety of answers you predict.
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#28
I got an answer for one part! And it makes me feel like she is tracking, understanding, and present...even of she hasn't answered the main question. I can wait for the other answer now that I know she's following. Besides, it will be a more honest answer if I do wait.
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#29
Smart line of thinking that it will be a more honest answer if you wait and she has time to properly consider. I wish a few people I know understood this.
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#30
When I saw a t (I don’t now) she assumed things on few occasions. She didn’t even know me well. It pissed me off and I spoke about it. She was apologetic.
Your t doesn’t sounds like she is assuming though. More like unsure of what’s best |
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