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Writing my way through...
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#941
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Hugs, Kit. I'm glad you were able to have a session last night. and that it was helpful. I'm sorry that you don't remember it but I think sometimes it's just that caring presence (even virtual or on the phone) alone that's enough. |
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Always in This Twilight
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#942
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Always in This Twilight
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#943
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Oh, I remember that! A cow is funnier than a deer! And it makes me think of how maybe a year ago I was telling Dr. T how I'd rescued a bird caught under some gardening mesh thing, and he said he'd rescued one similarly the week before (perhaps I need to keep my eye out for deer). |
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underdog is here
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#944
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__________________ Please NO @ Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live. Oscar Wilde Well Behaved Women Seldom Make History - Laurel Thatcher Ulrich Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. |
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Grand Magnate
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#945
I'm having a face-palm moment at work today. I don't know why it took me so long to figure this one thing out and I'm feeling really dumb right now. It's so obvious now that I see it.
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Elder Harridan x-hankster
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#946
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Life wants to live. Look at how a weed comes up thru a crack in the sidewalk. Its too hard to overcome that, in my lazy opinion! |
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#947
At an outdoor praise and worship event right now, hopefully things will go well, no severe weather expected tonight unlike last year.
__________________ COVID-19 Survivor- 4/26/2022 |
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Poohbah
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#948
I am super awkward and find it difficult interacting with people so besides my adult children i dont really have any other humans but i have my pets and my hobbies and i find the act of creating my paintings and little clay animals fulfilling. When i am depressed i think is it really worth it? am i just taking up space? But in the end I think i am taking this time to discover who I am after 50+ years of trying to be another person for my firstly my mother and then my ex. I am also on a disability pension so i dont work.
I have always preferred my own company so i cant really say what it would be like to want interaction with others. |
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Poohbah
Member Since Jan 2020
Location: Somewhere I'm working to leave
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#949
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I do that with my T, and it helps both of us track my memory issues too. Memory issues can definitely "slow" your progress sometimes because it's difficult to learn new things, connect the dots etc. Dissociation is an important issue for her to work with you too. HUGS if wanted. |
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Poohbah
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#950
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My T once said to imagine myself at 80 and reflecting on my life. She thinks such questions can be discussed in therapy, and sometimes we do do. Very Acceptance and Commitment Therapy. I've always answered with "I want to have a sense of purpose to my life, to make a positive difference in my small corner of the world"... but I can quickly spiral into existential dread and end up shaking with terror in my bed. Plus be unsure how to achieve that because it feels so vague? |
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#951
Daf i relate to so much of what you say. I spent so much of my life thinking, "this isnt the real me." It's nice to give it time and space and see who i am and what i do.
QM thats why i like karma - all you have to do is put your good stuff out into the world. Thats all that matters. Remember Van Gogh died penniless and unappreciated. So its not about being recognized. |
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Child of a lesser god
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#952
I am seriously thinking of quitting my job and just staying in my mother’s house.
This is a terrible idea in many ways. But going back to Ableist State U—and ableism is not their only problem—feels like a kind of death. __________________ The secret to eternal youth is arrested development.—Alice Roosevelt Longworth |
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#953
I have two situations that i need couch-advice about:
Situation 1 I want to apply for a job where I currently attend graduate school BUT am worried that since a couple of my professors don't like me, they won't agree to act as a reference when I ask them. Question: Should I apply for the job anyway (not ask those two professors) and find other professors to ask. I have a reputation of being a chatterbox that annoys the professors (and some of my classmates) so I'm worried that while this job is the PERFECT fit for me, I won't be considered due to my personality. Situation 2 There is a tenant in my building who is struggling to live alone. She's in her 60s, is on a county program for AA/NA housing financial support and she is actively using b/c she falls against her gas stove and then passes out, and then the whole apt bldg fills up with gas aka carbon monoxide (she's done this 7 times despite property management giving her a warning AND installing childproof knobs on her gas stove). The neighbors (two of them) yelled at me during the last episode, while we all stood outside waiting for the all-clear from the fire dept. One of the neighbors yelled at me, "You're what's wrong with society!" because I (due to exasperation) complained to the caretaker loudly, "I can't believe this is happening AGAIN! This woman can't live by herself! This keeps happening and making those of us home when it happens sick with dizziness and nausea and it's scary!" Because i said that, the neighbor who yelled at me thinks I'm not a compassionate person. Yet I am. I lived with my mother for 3 years taking care of her due to her dementia progressing to the point where my sister and I had to find a nursing home to put our mom in. Then, I moved in with a roommate, not knowing she has bipolar depression and I took care of HER for a year after that. I do not want to take care of any more people. I just want to take care of myself. Question: That mean neighbor has never apologized. Should I just ignore her even though there is a building BBQ coming up in two weeks (she has not signed up to go either, but I have). Should I knock on her door to address her nasty behavior with me? Or should I just ignore her. |
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#954
If you can afford it, why not do a what do they call it - second something. ACT! If there is something else you would like to do. University jobs have already taken a turn for the worse, have they not? Nobody gets tenure, non-tenured part timers teaching students, and now they have everybody's classes recorded. Who knows what the future holds? It may be wise to get out while you can. And you are so disciplined - not a layabout like me - and have so much to contribute. Be the change you want to see in the world. Come back to the U carrying a whip.
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Elder Harridan x-hankster
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#955
I wouldnt go to a neighbor to confront them. I would bring a bowl of cherries or cherry tomatoes, and tell them that i may have been a little oversensitive last week because i have caretaker burnout, from taking care of my mother for x years. And leave it. I dont understand demanding apologies. To me its like rubbing a dog's nose in its business.
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Always in This Twilight
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#956
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Is it a viable option to stay there? I mean, in terms of, can you legally stay there, etc., vs. having to sell the house for the estate (just thinking of what my mother dealt with with her mother's house and the assorted sibling drama that dragged on....). Is it possible to do a sabbatical sort of thing, take a year off? And if not, if you quit, would that hurt you in finding future work? I don't know how the academic world operates in terms of things like that. |
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#957
I actually have not known many academics who didn't want to quit and walk away from academia for any number of reasons. And they were valid like yours are. Even my person kept threatening to walk away (and she loved the scholarship -but hated teaching even though she was a great teacher (not just love bias here - she got student award after student award and all of her graduate students got jobs -she had a 100% record with her grad students getting teaching jobs soon after graduation) and become a gardener (ugh- I don't like gardening).
__________________ Please NO @ Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live. Oscar Wilde Well Behaved Women Seldom Make History - Laurel Thatcher Ulrich Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. |
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#958
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It doesn't make me feel better. It sort of makes me feel worse. I do know that cats like to be alone when they know they might not make it...but just the thought of him suffering even a moment alone breaks my heart. Even if that is just projection of my feelings onto him, it doesn't help me. But thank you. Quote:
I am still here, still grieving, but I do have two other cats to take care of, so that helps. I don't have many people in my life, so I get the crippling loneliness. I think something that has stopped me from Sui is that I do know the people who are in my life would be devastated. My T at the crisis center, who is warm and light-hearted, asked me very seriously (putting this in trigger quotes)
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I don't know. I'm rambling and feel like I didn't give a good answer. I hope it helps in some way? Sorry if it didn't. Quote:
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Situation #2: If it were me, I'd ignore her. Usually people who say things like this won't easily be swayed by that person looking for an apology. Last edited by CANDC; Jun 16, 2022 at 10:21 AM.. Reason: add Trigger warning SUI |
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Writing my way through...
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#959
well the fridge repair guy was here this afternoon and said the fan needs to be replaced and some other thingamabob part too. he has to order the parts so we borrowed a mini fridge from our friend for a few things but left the freezer stuff and some of the fridge stuff at their house. so now we just wait for the part to come in he said the most would be a week, probably a couple of days.
the closer it gets to h's heart procedure on friday, the more nervous and worried I am getting. the surgeon's office called today and asked a ton of pre-procedure questions about stuff and gave instructions like he has to shower and wash very well that morning, and wear clean, loose, comfortable clothes etc etc. he doesn't seem worried at all, apparently i am worrying for the both of us which is pretty much the norm I suppose. I keep telling myself just breathe, everything's going to be fine. i'm gonna go try to get some sleep, I got up at like 4am today so I'm tuckered out. Night couchies! |
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Writing my way through...
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#960
Trigger warning SUI
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Last edited by CANDC; Jun 16, 2022 at 10:20 AM.. Reason: add Trigger warning SUI |
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