[mark27]

Hey.
I've been through a lot since taking delta 8 tincture oil drug that one drop of it has changed completely my life.... i developed many unexplained issues, most of them feel like neurological ones but in all this sadness and having schizotypal personality disorder how do I find someone that really cares to help me? That its not just money at the end of the session. I never thought i would ever have to go through it, seek for help and see how difficult it is. Also acknowledging that there is no warranty to be helped or cured.
Since taking drug i developed
anxiety
more depression
tinnitus
pain in heart/left arm
muscle twitching
racing thoughts
confusion/ lack of focus/ concentration
insomnia
short term memory loss
and list goes on and on...
in one word not feeling myself anymore where before taking a drug i only had some depression after ended relationship

In ER they said take lorazepam...
one year later i did blood test and was clean again and doctor said he wouldnt give lorazepam to his family... he prescribed zoloft instead. I never took neither of those. Im trying to seek for help but i dont know where to start? Should i see therapist? psychiatrists? neuropsychologist? How to get this life on the right track..
Im planning to create new topic with everything i understood over the past 1.5 years, things i realized, learned etc Maybe someone could help me understand myself more and what to do but that is yet to come.
Thank you for your time.

[ScarletPimpernel]

Why not do all three? I have a therapist, a psychiatrist, and a neurologist. And I give them access to talk to eachother.

As far as finding someone who truly cares, the only thing I can suggest is trust your gut. And maybe define for yourself what "care" looks like. Me for example, I need honesty above all else. No lies, no being fake. I also need them to be a teammate. I learned that from L.

So what are your top priorities in a T? I also suggest being upfront about what you're looking for. Then if it's not a fit, you don't waste time on them.

[mark27]

If help was only free....
Its just unbelievable at times when you think their help is valued at $180 to 400 for 50 minutes and it almost feels like they just wait for payment.

To me something i dont understand is if i have anxiety causing all symptoms or actual underlying health issues. blood test said its clean but ive read stories when all tests were done and then heart attack happened... so its internal fight am i healthy or sick. will it improve, stay the same or get worse. what kind of help do i need. im so scared to do anything to help myself. after everything i went through i dont want experience this anymore and its just this wall in front of me stopping from making any moves. when it gets worse i want help but when it settles i dont want help. i was scheduled to do brain mri but i got anxiety thinking of whatever is going to go through my brain and potentially cause more racing thoughts and other things that someone wont believe me mri caused it. i told doctor that after listening to 8000hz video on youtube it caused negative racing thoughts and he was nah i dont think so, its your anxiety... when i know exactly how i was before and after. its so hard to find solution to problems that someone probably never experienced and they know it from books only...

[AliceKate]

If I may, I would recommend quitting youtube and googeling your symptoms. Start where it feel least uncomfortable. Sounds like that might be psychotherapy for you, so push yourself to make an appointment and when the time comes, push yourself to go. Discuss your financial situation with them first, if that is a major concern for you, maybe they know of a program you can join.

In my first session with T, I really, really didn't want to go; I dissociated so badly, I spoke to him as a different personality (I don't have and am not diagnosed with DID, I'm diagnosed with schizoid pd). The point is that I went and it got better from then onwards. I never dissociated like that since, and he is helping me. Truth be told, he even got me to see a psychiatrist, though I never thought I would. The pill I take helps (Lexapro/ Escitalopram), but the idea is for it to reduce my anxiety to a degree that I can keep on living my life and do therapy and to stop taking it at some as of now undefined point .

Just my 2 cents. Hugs if wanted.

[Fuzzybear]

[Victoria'smom]

You have to try a couple and being completely honest. My clinic does an assessment before assigning a therapist and or a Dr

[Aurelius710]

Originally Posted by mark27

If help was only free....
Its just unbelievable at times when you think their help is valued at $180 to 400 for 50 minutes and it almost feels like they just wait for payment.

To me something i dont understand is if i have anxiety causing all symptoms or actual underlying health issues. blood test said its clean but ive read stories when all tests were done and then heart attack happened... so its internal fight am i healthy or sick. will it improve, stay the same or get worse. what kind of help do i need. im so scared to do anything to help myself. after everything i went through i dont want experience this anymore and its just this wall in front of me stopping from making any moves. when it gets worse i want help but when it settles i dont want help. i was scheduled to do brain mri but i got anxiety thinking of whatever is going to go through my brain and potentially cause more racing thoughts and other things that someone wont believe me mri caused it. i told doctor that after listening to 8000hz video on youtube it caused negative racing thoughts and he was nah i dont think so, its your anxiety... when i know exactly how i was before and after. its so hard to find solution to problems that someone probably never experienced and they know it from books only...

As someone on the outside looking in, I think getting on an even keel is a good first step. Zoloft could definitely help. I don't have personal experience with it, but a close friend does and it helped her immensely. It is an antidepressant, so it takes a few weeks to work. Ativan (lorazepam) and benzos are fast acting and in general work really well for the short term. They are habit forming though, if used too much.

Once that's on it's way, then I'd get set up with a therapist. You could ask your primary physician for a referral. Or you can Google therapists in your area and window shop. If nothing else, there are several groups like BetterHelp that offer therapy for lower prices online (Zoom and the like.). Sure, you pay them, but they're professionals who are supposed to help you find an even keel. If they're not doing so well, fire them and get someone else.

As far as paying goes, ask. Plenty of places have sliding scales or point you in the right direction. Good luck. 🙂