Dear T: I really need to tell you something XLV

Mountaindewed · Sep 26, 2022 at 12:54 PM

Thanks for that nice email you sent this morning in response to the one I sent on Thursday answering a couple questions you had asked me. I was not expecting a response since I didn't feel like it warranted one. But it was nice of you.

SlumberKitty · Sep 26, 2022 at 01:45 PM

Thanks for the home visit, T. That was lovely.

ArtieTheSequal · Sep 26, 2022 at 03:07 PM

C, I'm looking forward to starting the next 8 weeks tomorrow after work. Just browsing the topics for week 2 (I already completed week 1 but I'm not going to work ahead this time so I haven't done any of week 2 yet) I'm glad I decided to continue. And you know, even though I don't suffer from depression anymore, I will probably continue for another 8 weeks after that if it's still paid for by my insurance, and do the depression one too because there's good stuff in there I'm sure - even if I'm not clinically depressed anymore. Might as well take advantage of what my insurance is offering.

ArtieTheSequal · Sep 26, 2022 at 05:04 PM

haha L this song made me think about you that day when i got there, you were outside helping your neighbor wrangle their cow that had escaped.

If I Was a Cowboy

LostOnTheTrail · Sep 26, 2022 at 05:59 PM

I cannot remember the last time I read a book.

As a writer, reading is really important.

I just opened the new ebook I bought after listening to that podcast.

What's the first exercise?

You guessed it...a timeline.

It's a running joke that has taken up residence in my cells.

Apparently I can now be overwhelmed by a table of contents.

Thank goodness I didn't pursue a PhD.

ScarletPimpernel · Sep 26, 2022 at 09:52 PM

L, I love you. And you really need to be more careful about what you say to people about me. I trust J only because you trust her; not because she has earned my trust. I'm not upset at you, but am very concerned about your boundaries. When I give you permission to talk to others about me, it means that I'm trusting you with very private and sensitive information about me. Please don't break that trust.

Mountaindewed · Sep 27, 2022 at 08:54 AM

My mind is a literal physical head **** today because of this cold and I'm thinking a lot about my transference T.

Mountaindewed · Sep 27, 2022 at 01:35 PM

I told you at least twice, once in person and once in email that our session tommorow needed to be virtual. Then I checked my email half an hour ago and there was an email from you 3 hours ago from you titled "virtual tommorow?" Then you said in your email "are we still planning on doing virtual tommorow? Hope all is well!!!" I know you really just wanted to know if my sister had the baby so I sent a breif email that yeah we were on for virtual tommorow and that my sister had a girl this morning.

I do sense a bit of countertransference from you at times which is why I sometimes try to keep my distance. I was planning on telling you everything tommorow, not through email. But your email warranted a response even if you were just prying.

20oney · Sep 27, 2022 at 03:55 PM

T, your hugs means more to me than I could ever put words to. Yesterday’s session just really highlighted how good they can be. And I’m so caught up in it still because it’s so bittersweet.
I think yesterday my defences were down more than usual and I wasn’t feeling so scared and ashamed of being hugged, or giving a hug. Felt like I could actually hug you and feel it for once.

Just, thank you so much for being consistent with me and being the warm person that you are

ArtieTheSequal · Sep 27, 2022 at 04:49 PM

L, this loss is hitting me hard, even though I knew it was coming at some point it's just that we all thought a couple of years, not 5-6 months. With other recent stuff going on in my life right now, adding this on top of it.... well.... I really wish I could come see you. I'm so sad.

velcro003 · Sep 27, 2022 at 08:37 PM

Dear T: I hope tomorrow's session goes okay. I bet you'll be happy that I actually asked my dad about that thing, even if he doesn't remember much. I hope we are okay.

ArtieTheSequal · Sep 28, 2022 at 12:55 PM

C, please don't let me derail today's call with my sadness. I know this isn't therapy, it's coaching, and I need to let you tell me your input on the stuff I answered in the app and give me better strategies for dealing with this latest thing. I can cry on h's shoulder.

Mountaindewed · 01:22 PM

The session went really well but did you not have a bra on? You kept standing up and it was... distracting....

But seriously, I liked it when you said you don't get these therapists who only specialize in one thing and know nothing about other things and that the client is not their diagnosis.

velcro003 · Sep 28, 2022 at 05:21 PM

OF COURSE the session is cancelled, when we are in the middle of talking about schedule changes. At least I’ll see you Friday. I hope.

ArtieTheSequal · Sep 28, 2022 at 08:26 PM

Thanks, C. That was helpful.

ScarletPimpernel · Sep 28, 2022 at 11:19 PM

Tell me, L! What's the point? Why should I even show up on Friday?

LostOnTheTrail · Sep 29, 2022 at 10:42 AM

Thanks for today.
It was great to learn that you are also a fan of This is Us.

Thank you for the powerful affirmation: 'I do not need to fear my feelings.'

Mountaindewed · Sep 29, 2022 at 03:16 PM

Is it really restricting if I've upped the quality of my food even I lowered the amount of calories I'm eating? I stopped eating candy bars for dinner and figured out a way to get in a lot more protein.

I know you want email updates but I'm tired and theres not much to talk about that we didn't cover yesterday. I'll send one on Monday or Tuesday since you really like it when your clients email you so you can get an idea of whats been going on between sessions. Plus I'll probably have stuff to email you about by then.

ArtieTheSequal · Sep 30, 2022 at 10:52 AM

L, I'm just so overall sad right now. I keep finding nice things to think about instead, but then the sad barrels right on back. I guess this is normal and this too shall pass but right now I want to come in and lay on your couch and have a good cry, and you cover me with a blanket again. So much going on around the sadness that I've been dealing with since before this hit - stuff with the house, h's doctor appointments/health in general, my son moving away, work, etc. Thankful that I have C, the cbt stuff is helping, but it's not you. Nothing else is or ever will be, I suppose. Sigh.

I miss you.

unaluna · Sep 30, 2022 at 11:12 AM

Dewed - i found i think its a free book on kindle called "Ordered Eating." I will let you know if i like it. I think it immediately lost my attention, but i will try again.

Menu

My Support Forums - Mental Health Support Groups

Get emotional support and friendship from others like you!

Dear T: I really need to tell you something XLV

My Support Forums

Mountaindewed Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2016 Location: Where the sidewalk ends Posts: 36,180 (SuperPoster!) 7 8,762 hugs given	Sep 26, 2022 at 12:54 PM #81 Thanks for that nice email you sent this morning in response to the one I sent on Thursday answering a couple questions you had asked me. I was not expecting a response since I didn't feel like it warranted one. But it was nice of you. __________________ Ridin' with Biden

SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Sep 26, 2022 at 01:45 PM #82 Thanks for the home visit, T. That was lovely. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA

ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,234 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,762 hugs given	Sep 26, 2022 at 05:04 PM #84 haha L this song made me think about you that day when i got there, you were outside helping your neighbor wrangle their cow that had escaped. If I Was a Cowboy

Mountaindewed Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2016 Location: Where the sidewalk ends Posts: 36,180 (SuperPoster!) 7 8,762 hugs given	Sep 27, 2022 at 08:54 AM #87 My mind is a literal physical head **** today because of this cold and I'm thinking a lot about my transference T. __________________ Ridin' with Biden

ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,234 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,762 hugs given	Sep 27, 2022 at 04:49 PM #90 L, this loss is hitting me hard, even though I knew it was coming at some point it's just that we all thought a couple of years, not 5-6 months. With other recent stuff going on in my life right now, adding this on top of it.... well.... I really wish I could come see you. I'm so sad.

velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,361 15 25 hugs given	Sep 27, 2022 at 08:37 PM #91 Dear T: I hope tomorrow's session goes okay. I bet you'll be happy that I actually asked my dad about that thing, even if he doesn't remember much. I hope we are okay.

ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,234 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,762 hugs given	Sep 28, 2022 at 12:55 PM #92 C, please don't let me derail today's call with my sadness. I know this isn't therapy, it's coaching, and I need to let you tell me your input on the stuff I answered in the app and give me better strategies for dealing with this latest thing. I can cry on h's shoulder.

velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,361 15 25 hugs given	Sep 28, 2022 at 05:21 PM #94 OF COURSE the session is cancelled, when we are in the middle of talking about schedule changes. At least I’ll see you Friday. I hope.

ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,234 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,762 hugs given	Sep 28, 2022 at 08:26 PM #95 Thanks, C. That was helpful.

ScarletPimpernel Wise Elder Member Since Nov 2013 Location: US Posts: 8,408 (SuperPoster!) 10 6,414 hugs given	Sep 28, 2022 at 11:19 PM #96 Tell me, L! What's the point? Why should I even show up on Friday? __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica

unaluna Elder Harridan x-hankster Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Milan/Michigan Posts: 39,863 (SuperPoster!) 12 66.4k hugs given	Sep 30, 2022 at 11:12 AM #100 Dewed - i found i think its a free book on kindle called "Ordered Eating." I will let you know if i like it. I think it immediately lost my attention, but i will try again.