New T

So, I met new T today, yep, no longer potential new T. Given how things are with awesome T and then with what I had read about new T I was a little worried that I had set him up to fail. I don't really like his office, it is dark, cramped and while the chairs are comfortable they don't have arms on them... eh.
But... new T himself... There was an almost instant connection and the more we talked the stronger it got. We covered a whole LOT of stuff today. He is nothing at all like awesome T but I think this is a really positive next step in my growth and healing. It actually makes me feel better that he is nothing like awesome T... It doesn't feel like I am trying to replace awesome T which we know could never happen/work. New T and I laughed and joked some, I cried some, he is nurturing and supportive. He shared and self disclosed some and it helped me to know he was human without it being too much.
I called awesome T as soon as I got out. Awesome T was cleaning his office in anticipation of leaving at the end of next week. He was playful and a bit distracted but he was both happy and proud that I had found someone else that I was excited about working with and that I was comfortable with. It was a little bittersweet as the conversation felt like T and I had already had our last session. Like, for awesome T our work was already done and I was just checking in with a former T... I guess it seemed like "past tense" if that makes sense... But I know I see him Tuesday.
Tuesday will be easier knowing that I have something to look forward to in working with new T.

Poor art T... now I really don't know where she fits LOL. But there are things I need to do/finish with her... but the connection and trust is already waaaaay stronger with new T.

That's amazing Omers. Your whole transition is. You ARE handeling it very well, and it is amazing to see how absolutly supportive and healthy your relationship with awesome T is.

Thanks AliceKate. I am really hoping that this will help others on here that are not being treated as well by their T's to know that it is not them and they deserve better.

I went for years, some of it documented in old posts here, with Ts that were not good for me. I always thought that was just the way that it was, or that it was me... some Ts even went so far as to blame me. We all deserve experiences like this!!

I'm also glad it went so well, Omers! The fact that you felt immediately connected to him is great. And like you said, it's probably good that he's so different from Awesome T.

I am emotionally very happy for you, Omers. Thank you so very much for sharing your experience & your feelings about all of it. So wonderful!

I'm so glad for you, Omers! And appreciate you sharing your experience.

That's such good news, Omers! I'm happy for you.

Wow, I find it kind of amazing that you just 'clicked' with new T straight away, I'm so pleased that you found them.

Perhaps having had the experience of not-so-good Ts and then working with awesome T has given you the confidence to know what kind of T you want and more importantly, the kind of T you deserve.

I absolutely believe that having such a great experience with awesome T allowed me to find a good fit.

It is hard to know what therapy should look and feel like until you've experienced it... which is why so many bd T's make it out there for so long...