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#941
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#942
Ativan, which I take about once a month on average, is not a whoosh feeling for me—it’s more like my brain calms down to normal speed and I can think clearly without uncontrolled emotions getting in the way. So I’m not surprised it has no noticeable effect on you, SD. (That is not meant to be snarky.)
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#943
Honestly? I feel like I need to do something and I am not ready to jump back into therapy. I thought I might be but I'm not.
I don't know. I'm just sorta feeling at my wits end lately and I don't know what else to do. I guess I'm thinking dulling my feelings with meds again will make the situation more tolerable while I figure out how to leave. I never got any whoosh from meds when I was on them years ago. They helped clear my head initially, and dulled my feelings so I could better tolerate the horrid job I was working at the time without drinking every night. I guess the short answer is I don't know what else to do and I don't want to let myself get back to the point where I was when I first saw pdoc in 2008. That was the lowest point of my life. |
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#944
Someone recommended a witch doctor to me today. Bit hard to come by around here, while she’s actually in Africa.
But hypnosis, massage, acupuncture, a regular exercise program, consistently doing the things you enjoy like drumming no matter what…these can all help. __________________ The secret to eternal youth is arrested development.—Alice Roosevelt Longworth |
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#946
Thanks y'all. I need to go to bed now, 4:15 am comes way too quickly. Night couch.
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@@, you shoulda found a witch doctor in italy. My parents were always talking about them. We had one on our street. They took my brother to him when he sprained his ankle.
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#948
If you're just wanting a regular old antidepressant prescription, you could probably get one from your regular doctor, maybe even without an appointment if you sent a message through their portal. Might save you some money overall.
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#949
Our 10 month old cat has a double eye infection. Nothing like wrestling a 13 lb cat with claws to put ointment in his eyes every 12 hours. Now he's sneezing too but he has a follow-up appointment with the vet next Monday.
My son started working at the retirement community I work at, washing dishes. I'm not sure how I feel about him working at the same place as me. Luckily, we are in different departments and don't run across each other much. Not that I don't love him but his job performance history is atrocious. |
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#950
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The 10 or so times I took Ativan in the past (haven't taken it in years), it's more like you describe @@. I would take it during a panic attack, and it just made it so that I could get through the grad class I was in (generally when it happened). Like it took me back to normal. |
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#951
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Hope it's OK to mention this here, but in Dear T, you mentioned reaching out to L. I don't see anything wrong with this, particularly if you want to talk about what's going on in your life right now and get some guidance/support. And if you made that clear in the email (rather than wanting to talk about your relationship with her, though that would be OK, too). If you don't want to try someone new, that might be the best option. I also think it could be worth looking into someone new, even if you said you aren't ready. You used something through your EAP before--can you get a limited number of sessions of more regular therapy through that, maybe? (as opposed to the CBT program.) I just think it can help to have someone to listen to all the feelings you're experiencing. It wouldn't have to turn into an intense relationship like with L, if that is your concern (which I understand--and I'm probably the wrong person to be saying it doesn't have to become that, but oh well). You deserve to be treated better than your H treats you. And to have a job that doesn't make you miserable. Sending hugs.... |
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That sounds like a challenge, getting eyedrops in your cat! I hope he gets better soon. And I could see where you wouldn't want your son to be working at your workplace if he has a bad history of job performance. I imagine you're concerned it could reflect poorly on you if he isn't a good employee? |
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#953
Thanks LT. I appreciate that. I hadn't even thought about EAP my brain isn't working. I may call them after work today actually, I think you can just talk to somebody on the phone when you call in iirc. I might go ahead and email L too that's a good idea to put my own boundaries on what I want to discuss. We shall see.
I did take zoloft years ago I may ask my GP for that. i took trazodone too but i didn't care for the side effects (terrible nightmares) so i don't want to go back on that one! |
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#954
I'm on break now but just before my break, my Sup messaged me to chastise me for being under goal yesterday and wanting to know why. I told her I am tired and struggling with life-stuff in general in addition to being worn out from the overtime/phones/etc at work. AND I told her I am still well over goal overall for month-to-date. But apparently management gets on HER case on a day to day basis if someone is under goal one day. I don't get how they have enough time to be that ****ing micro-managing. I'm meeting goal for month to date overall during a very difficult month so I want to tell her to shut the **** up and leave me alone so I can work. Not to mention she took me away from production to get on my case and make me explain ONE DAY.
Now I have a NEW reason to want to see a pdoc - to ask them to write me out of work for like 3 weeks!!!! **** this ****. |
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#955
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Ugh, that sounds so frustrating! It does seem ridiculous for her to be on your case about one day. It seems like it should be considered on a weekly or monthly basis. Hugs, if wanted. |
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#956
Thanks. I know, right? Even for Saturday through Tuesday overall, I'm over goal. One stinkin' day.... and I wasn't even that far under.
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#957
break's over... back to it.
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#959
My wife's primary care doctor prescribes her antidepressant, and I have a psychiatric nurse practitioner that I like. Accessing an actual psychiatrist in my area can be absurdly difficult and expensive, but we've both been happy with the providers we have.
You might also be surprised at how you feel with a new therapist. In some ways it might be easier than going back to L because you have a fresh start without any baggage. I am also wondering how you would feel about yourself for going back to her after a year away since you have fairly ambivalent feelings about your relationship with her. I don't think there is anything wrong with going back to her, but I do think it might needlessly complicate things. Even if a new T has to schedule you a while out, just having an appointment would probably start to make you feel better. |
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#960
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So it could be that you learn something helpful very quickly, or at least get a different perspective. Plus, you're not the same person now as you were when you were seeing L. And it may seem like you're starting from scratch, but you're not. You've likely already processed lots of things and know what is and isn't important to your life now and what you're working through. So it's more like starting in the middle, or even further in. Yes, I know I mentioned going back to L, but I think a new T could be very helpful as well. I was just thinking of how you said you didn't think you were ready for that. |
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