Couch 243: Winchester Cathedral

velcro003 · Apr 12, 2023 at 08:39 PM

Agreed!

LT-You’ve been married as long as I’ve been working at my company. *jaw drop*

ArtieTheSequal · Apr 12, 2023 at 09:21 PM

I realize I really do want feedback on my writing so - gulp - I just posted it, welcoming feedback from all.

There are 56 members in the private group so far.

LonesomeTonight · Apr 13, 2023 at 06:18 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by velcro003

Agreed!

LT-You’ve been married as long as I’ve been working at my company. *jaw drop*

Well, that was how long we've been together. It will be 15 years of marriage in a couple weeks. It does feel like a very long time...

It's funny, not counting doing freelance work for the same vendor, the longest I've been with a company working full-time is like 3 years!

LonesomeTonight · Apr 13, 2023 at 06:19 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

I realize I really do want feedback on my writing so - gulp - I just posted it, welcoming feedback from all.

There are 56 members in the private group so far.

That's so brave of you! And awesome. I hope you get good/helpful feedback, Artie.

ArtieTheSequal · Apr 13, 2023 at 10:26 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

That's so brave of you! And awesome. I hope you get good/helpful feedback, Artie.

Thanks LT! I did already last night almost right away, someone responded with a good suggestion for making it feel even more vivid. I recall similar feedback from the poetry writing class I took a few years ago; that I seem to hold back too much of my feelings. I did better in this piece, I know, but I can see re-reading it this morning that I am still holding back, still not putting enough of me into it. It's one thing being vulnerable in therapy (which is hard enough). But in a personal writing like this, even harder huh.

LonesomeTonight · Apr 13, 2023 at 11:11 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

Thanks LT! I did already last night almost right away, someone responded with a good suggestion for making it feel even more vivid. I recall similar feedback from the poetry writing class I took a few years ago; that I seem to hold back too much of my feelings. I did better in this piece, I know, but I can see re-reading it this morning that I am still holding back, still not putting enough of me into it. It's one thing being vulnerable in therapy (which is hard enough). But in a personal writing like this, even harder huh.

Glad you got some helpful feedback! I also feel I was holding back in my most recent submission, but I'm curious as to what the instructor will say. I think i should be getting feedback by tomorrow, as it's 3 business days, and I submitted it Tuesday morning my time (which is afternoon her time). I'm hoping it's before session at 1, in case I want to talk about it. I also want the next assignment to be working on--she sends those with feedback.

LostOnTheTrail · Apr 13, 2023 at 11:48 AM

For what it's worth, I think it's common to hold back in early submissions to writing courses/workshops/groups.

Just like in a storytelling sense you might not want to reveal every detail at once, it can be wise to get to know your group before you dive in.

(I'll get down off my Workshop Facilitator soapbox now.)

Today's session wiped me out, and I don't feel that next week will be any easier.
Tomorrow I have a belated Easter visit with my nephew, so I'm looking forward to some time out of my own head.

ArtieTheSequal · Apr 13, 2023 at 08:01 PM

Drove through Salt River Canyon today. Beautiful. Hiking at Round Mountain Park tomorrow morning.

Lemoncake · Apr 14, 2023 at 10:03 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by NP_Complete

I know my brain goes into emotional shutdown mode when I can't deal with things anymore. Going through that now with the confluence of dietitian, body image issues and adoption issues. I'm trying to talk about the shutdown mode in therapy but I'm so shutdown, I'm having trouble even doing that. I know the feelings are there and I'm going to have to face them at some point, but not right now. The problem is that I feel like I've been operating in emotional shutdown mode for a big chunk of my life and I want to not do that.

You can get through this velcro. Are you not allowed to go visit the daycare? Are you still seeing your therapist?

Shutting down is a normal response when we are overwhelmed. Don't try to push through it, when you are feeling like that. Work on feeling/ doing stuff that makes you feel safe. If you would be comfortable with touch, I think you could really benefit from bodywork or massages to help you get more connected with your body.

ArtieTheSequal · 06:43 PM

Had a wonderful hike this morning! I took half a gazillion pics, the wildflowers were just incredible. We made it to the top this time woohoo! That was our goal. Then we hiked another trail and did some other walking around town. About 3.75 miles all total. H is asleep now, that was more walking in one day than he's done in a long time. Here's a couple pics.

LostOnTheTrail · Apr 14, 2023 at 05:59 PM

So beautiful, Artie...on every level.

ArtieTheSequal · 06:43 PM

Oops, here's one more of the flag at the top, from lower down the trail.

LonesomeTonight · Apr 14, 2023 at 06:38 PM

Great pics, Artie--thanks for sharing!

velcro003 · Apr 14, 2023 at 09:09 PM

It is really starting to sink in that on Wed, I am not going to walk into the preschool for the first time in 13 years, and it feels like no one cares. I’ve been hyperventilating/crying for over an hour and can’t calm down. I am in complete panic. My therapist
keeps telling me that I can handle this, but I don’t think I can.

I think even my cats are afraid of me.

NP_Complete · Apr 14, 2023 at 10:49 PM

We care. I'm also thankful that they found you another job, because being jobless while you're incapacitated would be disastrous. I remain hopeful that your medical issues will get sorted and that you'll be back in that preschool soon.

LonesomeTonight · Apr 15, 2023 at 06:34 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by velcro003

It is really starting to sink in that on Wed, I am not going to walk into the preschool for the first time in 13 years, and it feels like no one cares. I’ve been hyperventilating/crying for over an hour and can’t calm down. I am in complete panic. My therapist
keeps telling me that I can handle this, but I don’t think I can.

I think even my cats are afraid of me.

Hugs, Velcro. Like NP said, we care. And you've handled this so far (even if you've struggled).

Did you get any answers at your doctor's appointment? I think that was yesterday, right?

ArtieTheSequal · 10:42 AM

Hugs if wanted, Velcro. I know we're 'just' strangers on the internet but we care. I don't say much about a lot of things that people post because honestly and sincerely, I just don't know what to say. I'm always afraid that I'll say something awkward or stupid. Surely there is some way you would be able to see the kids at some point? Sending good thoughts, and hugs if wanted.

East17 · Apr 15, 2023 at 10:21 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Well, that was how long we've been together. It will be 15 years of marriage in a couple weeks. It does feel like a very long time...

It's funny, not counting doing freelance work for the same vendor, the longest I've been with a company working full-time is like 3 years!

Goodness I am feeling positively ancient.... I will have been with my H for 38 years this year! You would serve less for murder...!

ArtieTheSequal · Apr 15, 2023 at 10:32 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by East17

Goodness I am feeling positively ancient.... I will have been with my H for 38 years this year! You would serve less for murder...!

I'm approaching ancient haha I've been with h going on 27 years (married 26 of those this coming December)

LonesomeTonight · Apr 15, 2023 at 11:47 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by East17

Goodness I am feeling positively ancient.... I will have been with my H for 38 years this year! You would serve less for murder...!

Well, I was 31 when I got married, if that helps any!

Menu

My Support Forums - Mental Health Support Groups

Get emotional support and friendship from others like you!

Couch 243: Winchester Cathedral

My Support Forums

velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,361 15 25 hugs given	Apr 12, 2023 at 08:39 PM #561 Agreed! LT-You’ve been married as long as I’ve been working at my company. jaw drop

ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,343 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,821 hugs given	Apr 12, 2023 at 09:21 PM #562 I realize I really do want feedback on my writing so - gulp - I just posted it, welcoming feedback from all. There are 56 members in the private group so far.

LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,901 (SuperPoster!) 9 75.1k hugs given	Apr 14, 2023 at 06:38 PM #573 Great pics, Artie--thanks for sharing!

NP_Complete Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2017 Location: the upside down Posts: 3,824 7 6,366 hugs given	Apr 14, 2023 at 10:49 PM #575 We care. I'm also thankful that they found you another job, because being jobless while you're incapacitated would be disastrous. I remain hopeful that your medical issues will get sorted and that you'll be back in that preschool soon.