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As I've posted before. My 20yr therapy ended during covid suddenly. I had a chance to finally go back but id moved home and job and it would be a bit of a trek. I'm not sure that's the only reason. I had wanted to go back but I didn't want to go back too.. So I ended it without an ending sessions becuse I was scared of getting stuck back in again with all those obsessive feelings. .
3 yrs on and I message T with any life events that I have which isnt a lot and I know I read far too much into her reply whether it be is she really interested is she trying not to reply in a therapeutic manner is she trying to show me it's over so let it be over? So last night I had a dream that I was stalking her. In the dream im ducking and diving trying to not be seen by her and then I wake up and it hits me the feelings I have for her still. That big lump of wanting her to still know me becomes just that, my hopes and desires. I can feel these as mine and T suddenly becomes a separate person that isnt living her life with the feelings I have about her.. I let go and lived.. The dream let me get to this part that's been trapped in me for the past 3 yrs. I saw T for what she was and not wanted I wanted her to be. I saw how she could do her job care but not care in the way I do. She's free, I was a prisoner to my own desires. I've been fighting and fighting and yet I'm the only one j km the fight. T carries on living her life. No point stalking her even if it is in a dream. Last edited by Therapy reviewed; Jun 23, 2023 at 07:14 AM.. |
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