[MissCharlotte]

Underneath. When T first said he had trouble getting underneath my dissociation I had not a single clue what he was talking about. Now I use this term myself when I can't get to the root of something and feel stuck in the outer layers.

To get to the core of our true selves--underneath all the trauma we have experienced is a goal. To heal my wounds or what T and I call my core woundedness is at the heart of my work with T. So what is this healing? I remember wondering when it would begin. Okay, I thought, I have to go through a lot of crap before I can begin healing. I imposed or superimposed timetables because it seemed to me that healing could not occur without suffering. I do realize and know that healing is not linear (saw Echoes say this recently too). I now know that healing will be the rest of my life and that I am healing now. I began healing the moment I picked up the phone and first called T. I will probably forget this tomorrow and definitely next week when he is away but right at this moment in my consciousness I know that my work with T is a joy. It is the pursuit of knowing myself so I can embrace life in a joyful way. We are all allowed happiness.

I have reached a new stage in my relationship with T and with myself. I don't worry about calling him if I need him. I can ask for what I need most times. I feel extremely safe in his office and in his presence. I can talk to him about almost anything. It took me a long long time to arrive at this place and I plan on stayin a while! Hmmmm, now if only I could hold onto this feeling when he is away next week. Not a chance in hell!

Peace

[ECHOES]

What a wonderful post, Miss Charlotte.

The peaceful tone of it is so calming.

Ii makes me think of when my trust for T felt real to me. Calming and powerful like your post about your therapy.

It must be what secure little kids feel like, I'm thinking.

dont lose what you wrote here... write it out over and over.. memorize it.. record yourself saying it.. anything which gives you access to it again... write out everything about how you feel right now. Describe it to yourself.. in as much detail as possible until you feel so dumb that you cant stand it.

wrap yourself in it... until you can use it to build a strong framework around you

[sunrise]

very uplifting.

[Lemon]

Made me smile to read your post. A great example for the rest of us to work towards.

[Fuzzybear]