THOUGHTS

***T should be able to and deserves to take a vacation and rest.
***He needs to "refresh" himself and take a break from all of his "difficult" patients (but why am I being punished for this, lol?)
***I adore my T and want him and his family to be happy and whole.

FEELINGS/EMOTIONS

***How can T leave me when he knows how much pain this causes me?

***Why can't T just send me one email with some words of wisdom to let me know that he knows I'm in pain and cares? (He could write it before he leaves and ask a colleage to send it mid-week? Do I have to think of everything, lol?)

***I'm sooo angry at him! I feel sooo lost without him. I feel empty. I feel bored. I feel like seeking excitement to cure these feelings or lack thereof.

***I totally miss him already. He's sailing the high seas and I'm not. Captain Kiya! I need you now! Take a cell phone to his ship and insist that he call me and leave me a message saying he cares, k? Thanks! --P.S. I need him to come home alive, lol.

***I hate being so attached. I hate depending on ONE person to make me feel safe. I hate that this person is NEVER going to feel the same about me as I do him.

***He says that my neediness is the problem, not that he can't be a father figure for me. If he was to take that place, I wouldn't be so desperately needy. I could rest knowing he is there and probably wouldn't bother him much. It's kind of paradoxical in nature. (This is MY story and I'm sticking to it.! I think we should all band together and pass this hypothesis off to our Ts as theory, lol).

***This week is totally going to be spent dealing with these %#@&amp;#! emotions. This really sucks! %#@&amp;#! this! I <font color="#666666"> DREAD </font> this week!

***The difference between my thoughts and feelings makes me feel totally <font color="#666666"> UNGRATEFUL </font> since my T has done so much for me. How can I be angry at him???????????? I make no sense to me.

My thoughts are white, my emotions are black. So, to rephrase A Touch of Grey by the Grateful Dead,

Oh well, a touch of grey,
Kinda doesn't suit me anyway.
That's all I had to say,
but it's alright.
I don't know if I'll get by,
I don't know if I'll get by,
I hope to God I'll get by,
Will I survive?

Let's all try to help each other survive this! Thanks

[mel4]

Hey Sugar Magnolia,

I realize that you're probably thinking "fare thee well, fare thee well, i love you more than words can tell...." when your T left for his vacay. In regards to your thoughts/emotions, just "goes to show, ya don't ever know...watch each card and play it slow", and PLEASEEE just remember that "Every silver linings got a touch of grey. we will get by, we will get by, we will get by, we will survive"

Just remember, you will get by, you will survive. I hope the week isn't too dready.

PS. my apologies if this doesn't make sense to the non-deadheads out there lol

[Kiya]

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Captain Kiya! I need you now! Take a cell phone to his ship and insist that he call me and leave me a message saying he cares, k? Thanks! --P.S. I need him to come home alive, lol.

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Aaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!! Soli.... I've got your back. Glad you started the thread as mine is gone away again too. *sniff*.
If i see him in my Spyglass, I'll throw him a message in a bottle!!! With a cell phone inside it!!!!

(((((((((((((((((((((((((( soliaree )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

T vacations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hang in there. We'll listen!

[MissCharlotte]

((Soli))

I have one more week of therapy before T goes away and then I won't see him till after labor day.

This crap sucks. Plain and simple.

I don't know what to tell you except that I'll be in the boat with you soon. The only thing I can think of is to stay as busy as possible. DO things. Plan lessons for this school year, set up your classroom, etc. Let the feelings that come up have life. I try to write mine down in poetry.

(((((Soliaree)))))

With ya sistah!

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((( Soliaree ))))))))))))))

[Kiya]

*Picks up Soli and Miss on Pirate Ship, heads for open waters*

[little*rhino]

awww.. my poor soli

you are fantastic, brave, beautiful, kind and just plain marvelous... with all that, who needs T?

yeah.. i know.. you do, i do and half of the world does. *sigh.

can you distract yourself at all? Maybe pull out some project you've been meaning to do and just have at it? Maybe try to give your own brain a vacation from therapy? Imagine how proud T would be if you were able to tell him the things you did to try to cope. It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt or feel bad, but if you work towards coping you can look forward to basking in his approval (and YES, i do know that is taking advantage of another issue entirely).

i shouldn't try to fix the problem... ugh, im sorry. i empathize sugar.. i really do. Scuffy goes away for two weeks in September... i'll hold you if you hold me then..k?

sending much love.. balloon animals (hippos of course), tap dancers and one gigantic big $#@!ing chocolate truffle... no rhyme or reason for those particular things, just thought it would make you smile

[Sherryanne]

I know exactly how you feel. My T is on vacation for 3 weeks and I miss her terribly. How dare she abandon me at this critical point in my life. How dare she. Oh Im dying, how Im dying!!!!!!

[Lemon]

((soliaree)) I'm here with you....My T is about to go on a vacation and my next apt isn't until Sept 4th. That seems so long away. Plus I realized I wasn't totally honest with her about something last session. It wasn't on purpose, but I on purpose but I still want to tell her the complete truth and I want to get it over with (but in person). On top of that I'm making a med change decision and that's a big deal for me. We'll have to hang in there together.

(((Mel))),
Thanks for the clever reply I loved it!

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Just remember, you will get by, you will survive. I hope the week isn't too dready.

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Thank you! I hope so too. I shall do my best

Take care!

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That sounds good. I was thinking more on the lines of kidnapping him, lol. But that will do.

Thanks for the support. We will get through this together!

((((Earth)))))
Thanks for the support! Only 8 days to go (ugh).

MissC,

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This crap sucks. Plain and simple.

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I couldn't have said it better myself! I second that motion.

We will all make it through this together.

Take care.

((((Fuzzy)))),
Thanks for your support! It means so much

Candoo,
Thanks for the hugs, compliments, and gifts Thanks for being here for me, I'll be there for you whenever you need it

Take care.

(((((Sherry)))))
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How dare she abandon me at this critical point in my life.

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No doubt! What are these Ts thinking, lol? Seriously, though, I know it is painful and I know you will make it through. I'm here if you need me. Take care!

(((((Lemon)))))),
Wow. There's nothing like unfinished business hanging over your head, huh? And it sounds like you are having a lot to deal with. You're right, we'll all hang in there together. When our Ts get back, we can use the rope to tie them to their chairs, lol. See if they ever go on vacation again TC

[chloey]

It is so hard when someone goes away- i used to meet with my youthworker once a week, plus emails plus texts, plus seeing her at church twise a week, now she has left to get a new job, and she only livess round the corner but i cannot see her anymore, it really really hurts, we can get through it though, even though its weel hard. x