So, my last session with my amazing T was on Sept 23rd.

I have had a T at my university for several weeks who is wonderful and awesome. I like her a lot, I trust her, I value her suggestions and approach. We honestly just "clicked". She wants to work with me as much as I want to work with her. Problem is, uni won't let her see me long-term, it's a 16-session max.

So, she referred me to a very good personal friend of hers. This person seems to be a good match for us as well! I'm doing the official assessment to start therapy with her tomorrow.

Everything sounds great. But it doesn't FEEL that way.

I'm mourning the "loss" of my T. I don't know my place with her anymore. I don't know what the limits and expectations are with her.

At the same time, I don't know my place with these 2 other therapists either. My old T and I had a routine, a knowledge base of what was acceptable and what was not. Starting over, I'm so lost. I'm overly worried about messing up with them and ruining the relationship(s) from the beginning.

We are also already attached to the T at uni. She has connected to us in ways I didn't think another T could. Now, at the time of losing my old T, I feel like I have to also mourn the coming loss of this T as well!

While all this is going on - I am having trauma issues flare up. Nightmares and flashbacks are overtaking my life. I'm also working on a masters (in an advanced program, condensing the program into just 1 year). I am having health concerns and have recently transitioned from using a walker/rollator to using a wheelchair part time because of the pain. I was working part time but quit this morning (add that to stress because I feel worthless for doing so) due to the stress of school and all the transitions.

I don't feel like I can move through this. I have no idea where I stand with my old T, my 2 other T's, or even just in my own life.

I'm so lost. I don't really know what I'm asking, but I need words of wisdom on how to deal with all of this.

[CedarS]

What can you do to soothe and comfort yourself during these challenging times?

I wish I knew! Each T tells me to take care of myself and I'm not sure how to do that when I'm so emotionally exhausted.