As you know from my last post, my last call to T was a crying one-- I hated the message he left me and I just sorta lost it and was crying on his voicemail saying that I just wanted my dad back.

Today is Sunday and I hadn't heard anything back from him. I know he was at a conference this weekend. However, I was still irritated that he would hear a message in which I was really just kinda losing it over everything and then not call back-- that is pretty unlike him.

I noticed that I had a voicemail or two on my phone for the last couple of days. I didn't bother checking, though, because the missed calls that I got over the last couple days were from an 800 number, my best friend, and my husband... and I had spoken to all of them afterwards without checking my voicemail, so I wasn't in a hurry to do so.

Today I took a second to listen to the messages... the first one was from T. I was shocked because I never remember seeing a missed call from him on my phone. Then I checked and he showed that he called on Friday night. He left a very sincere sounding message. He said that it would have been okay for me to call his cell after he had called on Friday; the agency just doesn't want messages being left on there... but I can call to see if he will pick up. He sounded kind of sad, but empathic as he said, "It seems like anything I say is not giving you what you need, but I can understand that." Then he said, "Let's talk next week and see if we can find a better solution."

I see him on Wednesday, but I can leave a message if I want to talk to him tomorrow. I'm not sure if I am ready to talk to him yet. I also feel like I'm getting sick, so I really hope I don't come down with anything that will prevent me from going to session on Wednesday. I really do want to be there.

[Perna]

It sounds like it's all working out okay in its convoluted fashion? How's the feeling sick going? You better today? It sounds like you'll be able to get things ironed out a bit Wednesday?

[Kiya]

awwwwwwww yay T for calling afterall
be well!!