[RiverX]

".........I feel like when I leave to see T, part of me checks out. It's like I leave part of myself or 85 percent of my brain at home. When I get to her office, not only am I anxious, but I feel completely zoned out and can barely think let alone talk.............".. ~~~ quote stolen from previous thread.

I'm in post session space right now, so dont know if what I say today will be true tomorrow, but the above quote helped me to be there with my powerlessness and admit it with honesty but not shame, so I could say in session, "I've never felt so useless and disordered and unable to speak my truth".
Its at first humilating to be in that position, but having read lifelesstravelled's share, it made me know I was just human.
Its like step 1 - having admitted it, and sat in the face of this, - I got into flow by the end of the session.

[Sannah]

River that is too cool..............

[RiverX]

Originally Posted by Sannah

River that is too cool..............

sannah, I was wondering - what Is a poohbah?

[lifelesstraveled]

Originally Posted by RiverX

".........I feel like when I leave to see T, part of me checks out. It's like I leave part of myself or 85 percent of my brain at home. When I get to her office, not only am I anxious, but I feel completely zoned out and can barely think let alone talk.............".. ~~~ quote stolen from previous thread.

I'm in post session space right now, so dont know if what I say today will be true tomorrow, but the above quote helped me to be there with my powerlessness and admit it with honesty but not shame, so I could say in session, "I've never felt so useless and disordered and unable to speak my truth".
Its at first humilating to be in that position, but having read lifelesstravelled's share, it made me know I was just human.
Its like step 1 - having admitted it, and sat in the face of this, - I got into flow by the end of the session.

River! This is great! Yea it is very embarrassing for me. I always leave the office feeling humiliated because Im thinking she probably thinks Im some idiot who barely knows her own name LOL. This is great for you River! You are making progress. I am sure it felt GREAT to tell your T this and I am sure he understand where you were coming and in the future when you go in feeling like this, your T will know Thanks for sharing!

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by RiverX

sannah, I was wondering - what Is a poohbah?

One of the levels of membership. It is a higher level that is based on your number of posts. I think that there are a few higher levels.........