[MissCharlotte]

Okay, I've been a bit wired due to increasing meds but I think this current wired state I am in is a post-therapy reflection at two in the morning dilemma. And damn, my alarm goes off at 5:30 for work- argghhh.

As I lie here thinking about yesterday's session so much is running through my mind. It was an interesting session, we covered a lot of territory--At one point, T told me he was touched that I took some of his advice and consulted a nutritionist. Awwww, it was a sweet moment. I can't remember how we got onto this, but we were briefly talking about our work together and goals and T looked at me and said, what is this work? And I said, "therapy." So, he goes, "So how do you know when you're cured?" And I said, "I think you're always cured, or you're always ****ed up." He said, "Good answer." For some ridiculous reason that pleased me and I feel like I passed some kind of test. I still look for his approval. Hmmmmm.

As I was leaving I was feeling anxious and fluttery in my stomach and, thinking it was more reaction to increasing meds, I said that I would take a klonopin. T looked at me and reminded me what we had been talking about and suggested I sit with it for a bit and see if I could manage it.

He was right, I felt fine within an hour but it just came back at me now.
Okay--yawning, so hopping back into the zzzzzzzzzzzone.

Originally Posted by MissCharlotte

I still look for his approval. Hmmmmm.

LOL - I've told my T that even though it's silly, my favorite thing is when he tells me he is proud of me (parental transference, anyone?). I was telling that to H and he was like "I think I would be offended if someone told me they were proud of me!!" - but I just soak it up.

Good for you for being able to sit with the feelings instead of taking a klonopin....and for consulting a nutritionist! Check you out!

[madisgram]

thank you for sharing that moment with your t with us.i feel validation of how i feel or my opinion is a good thing, jme. for me that's progress cause for so long i wasn't validated and never knew if my thoughts were on the mark or skewed thinking. for me it empowers me. then i can move on to the next thing...and then more improvement.
i'm happy for you, miss charlotte.