I tried a couple yrs back, and many times before that, to call a truce between my sister (18 mos younger and one of my primary abusers).
Each time she slammed the door in my face and wanted nothing to do with any kind of reconciliation, forgiveness or truce. So I said I would not make any more attempts unless she made contact first.

Sunday night she called. She will be in the area and wants to get together.
The phone conversation went really well--she's been in treatment (i don't know for sure what for) and is on meds for depression and anxiety. She sounded good and not the snappy poor me person she has sounded like before.

Thinking it might be a good idea to see her.
T thinking not
insiders thinking not
H thinking i need a plan B to get out of there if we have to.
T says it a big deal-I don't see it as such, but then I am the logical, detached, can handle anything voice.

Insiders are going into panic and anxiety mode.
Having flashbacks and memories of her abuse toward us that are continuous, vivid and disturbing...like everyone that was hurt by her wants me to see what she did and feel the pain......

T says to let everyone "log in" and write or draw or whatever so she can hear them and what they are saying. And so can I. NO shutting them down, putting them in a room or ignoring them or not listening.

The sister is coming to the area next week.
haven't picked a day yet to meet but will most likely be either next Tues or Thurs--only 2 days I have free.

Not sure what I need here...
Haven't even seen her yet and everyone is already scared.
I'm afraid of AFTER we see her......what about triggers or something.....
Feels like "When Worlds Collide"
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On one side I would go as I would like to know if a relationship can be found.

On the other hand I wouldnt as I wouldnt want to stir things up in my head or life, I would also like to feel my T knew me well enough that I could trust his/her advice.