[sugahorse1]

I don't if i'm being stupid, but I'm in a relationship where i sure i'm being taken for granted.
Now, I don't think a normal person would hang around - is it because I'm bipolar that I'll take any little bit of attention as better than being single? Or am I being overly sensitive especially as I'm bipolar?
AAARRRRGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RANT RANT RANT

[perpetuallysad]

Well, give me some more specifics... its too hard to determine if you are over-reacting when I can only guess as to what he's doing. Also, there's nothing wrong with being "overly" sensitive! I think you're great.

[sugahorse1]

I think I'm over-sensitive. and selfish. and a brat that cries when she cant get her own way. And lonely, espec with it being a Friday night
I need to get over myself
I need to take responsibility for my own happiness
I need to learn to love myself
I need to appreciate my own company
I need to get better
I need to find love in myself, and otherwise understand God loves me

[perpetuallysad]

I cry often when things don't go my way (though sometimes I cannot cry no matter how badly I want to). Just because you cry doesn't mean you are a brat. Crying can be a sign of frustration and a way to relieve stress. Sometimes after I cry I feel SO MUCH BETTER!

Plus, the things you've listed are things about you. And they are good points, so I won't argue that. But you didn't say anything about how your mate treats you. What is happening that makes you feel taken for granted? (I'm not trying to pry, if you don't want to tell me these things, please feel free to tell me to hush.)

[sugahorse1]

very complicated and i think i just need to take a benzo and sleep instead of filling the forums with rubbish and bothering everyone else. in the morning it'll all be over and better.

[perpetuallysad]

You don't bother me at all. But I'll give you some peace. I hope you have a good nap.

[NuckingFutz]

Hang in there sugahorse.

[mystes]

Try to understand ur self and the situation u had in hand
after understanding it

acceptance iS the best way and nice option to behold..

pls be strong then

[sugahorse1]

Thanks all - back with a vengeance - kind of, but don't know.
Definitely able to rationalise a bit better now than when I firsted posted this

[El-ahrairah]

i cry all the time my bf gets upset with me, even when it's my fault ;c
I am a baby

sugahorse, what does your therapist say? In any event, good luck in sorting this out.

[sugahorse1]

Thanks - I don't see a therapist, but this is one reason I'd really like to start. It's just now covered by my medical aid, so I pay out my own pocket, and after having no luck with a decent pdoc yet, I'm scared of the process of finding a T too.
My "new" pdoc does do a fair bit of therapy - I see her for 1 hour at a time

sugahorse, best of luck in getting this resolved.